"connect with ease!"
...the view from my desk is none too exciting. all i can see are empty boxes scattered around my room, seeming to reflect many of my thoughts and feelings as so late.
*deep breath*
liberation. i want the i-ching hexagram for liberation on my left wrist. i feel so trapped sometimes...
and then i see somebody worse off than myself, struggling with every detail of their life. a couple girls that 'work for me' actually.
one of them is perfectly happy with her life, being a single mother of a 4 year old and still living with her parents -- and the other made the (.not.so.wise.) decision to marry at 18 (which was less than a year ago) and is perfectly miserable. or at least, it seems so reflected in her thoughs, opinions, actions -- and though both are in extremely similar situations, they take their positions in life completely different. the first is perfectly sweet and happy, and seems to be entirely content with her role as a mother. the second is constantly arguing things. always having to prove herself to be right, always defensive and controlling.
see, this is what confuses me.
how do two people in such similar situations have such different views on life? is it a matter of upbringing? genetics? family mental history? better yet, how do two people in such a seemingly dead end position let themselves stay in that position? i realize it's not quite so simple as merely saying "hmm, i believe i will change my view on life today and change things all for the better" but i *do* believe that you can wake up and say (the now infamous) "something needs to change." because...
...a revolution starts with a whisper.
and people will believe anything if you whisper it.
...right? ahh. you *have* been paying attention ;)
anyways, as i was saying.
...the view from my desk is none to inspiring. when do i get a muse of my own? i have a loki, and now i need a muse, right? applications now being accepted -- expect thorough screenings as well as background checks before being considered to be considered ;)
*deep breath*
liberation. i want the i-ching hexagram for liberation on my left wrist. i feel so trapped sometimes...
and then i see somebody worse off than myself, struggling with every detail of their life. a couple girls that 'work for me' actually.
one of them is perfectly happy with her life, being a single mother of a 4 year old and still living with her parents -- and the other made the (.not.so.wise.) decision to marry at 18 (which was less than a year ago) and is perfectly miserable. or at least, it seems so reflected in her thoughs, opinions, actions -- and though both are in extremely similar situations, they take their positions in life completely different. the first is perfectly sweet and happy, and seems to be entirely content with her role as a mother. the second is constantly arguing things. always having to prove herself to be right, always defensive and controlling.
see, this is what confuses me.
how do two people in such similar situations have such different views on life? is it a matter of upbringing? genetics? family mental history? better yet, how do two people in such a seemingly dead end position let themselves stay in that position? i realize it's not quite so simple as merely saying "hmm, i believe i will change my view on life today and change things all for the better" but i *do* believe that you can wake up and say (the now infamous) "something needs to change." because...
...a revolution starts with a whisper.
and people will believe anything if you whisper it.
...right? ahh. you *have* been paying attention ;)
anyways, as i was saying.
...the view from my desk is none to inspiring. when do i get a muse of my own? i have a loki, and now i need a muse, right? applications now being accepted -- expect thorough screenings as well as background checks before being considered to be considered ;)