When the walls fall down
It's been a long year
Since you've been gone
I've been alone here
I've grown old
I fall to pieces, I'm falling
Fell to pieces and I'm still falling
Every time I'm falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
I keep a journal of memories
I'm feeling lonely, I can't breathe
I fall to pieces, I'm falling
Fell to pieces and I'm still falling
All the years I've tried
With more to go
Will the memories die
I'm waiting
Will I find you
Can I find you
We're falling down
I'm falling
Every time I’m falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
Every time I’m falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
Every time I’m falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
Every time I’m falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
"Fall to pieces" by Velvet Revolver
That song just seems very fitting right now. I have noticed a very disturbign trend in my life over the last couple of days. I am very good at screwing things up. I screw them up to the point where sometimes I dont think I can fix them, and yet it works out, and I will do really well for a little while. and then it is like i take everythign i just got done working so hard for and crumple it up into a bal and use it as a basketball and throw it away. I do not understand why I am so incapable of maintaining a normal life. I dont understand why i continuously go down this road, and I dont know what to do to fix it anymore. And I know the patented answer is going to be that I can not fix it, but with God I can fix it, and that is a completely differant subject. I do not know as though I have ever been so confused about what I believe. And how do I put my trust back into something that I am not 100% sure I still have faith in. I painted on the happy face for years, and held everythign in my life together pretty well, but i do not know as though it was truly "my" faith, and how much of that "faith" was based on how bad I had screwed up and what I thought everyone else wanted. I am trying to sort through everything right now. Cant tell you that I will ever get back to the point in my life where I was, and I certainly can not say I am at a point in my life that any of you will really like or agree with, but right now I have to make sure whatever is there is there because it is Me, and what I want. Hopefully one day it will all make sense to me and everyone else.
Since you've been gone
I've been alone here
I've grown old
I fall to pieces, I'm falling
Fell to pieces and I'm still falling
Every time I'm falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
I keep a journal of memories
I'm feeling lonely, I can't breathe
I fall to pieces, I'm falling
Fell to pieces and I'm still falling
All the years I've tried
With more to go
Will the memories die
I'm waiting
Will I find you
Can I find you
We're falling down
I'm falling
Every time I’m falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
Every time I’m falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
Every time I’m falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
Every time I’m falling down
All alone I fall to pieces
"Fall to pieces" by Velvet Revolver
That song just seems very fitting right now. I have noticed a very disturbign trend in my life over the last couple of days. I am very good at screwing things up. I screw them up to the point where sometimes I dont think I can fix them, and yet it works out, and I will do really well for a little while. and then it is like i take everythign i just got done working so hard for and crumple it up into a bal and use it as a basketball and throw it away. I do not understand why I am so incapable of maintaining a normal life. I dont understand why i continuously go down this road, and I dont know what to do to fix it anymore. And I know the patented answer is going to be that I can not fix it, but with God I can fix it, and that is a completely differant subject. I do not know as though I have ever been so confused about what I believe. And how do I put my trust back into something that I am not 100% sure I still have faith in. I painted on the happy face for years, and held everythign in my life together pretty well, but i do not know as though it was truly "my" faith, and how much of that "faith" was based on how bad I had screwed up and what I thought everyone else wanted. I am trying to sort through everything right now. Cant tell you that I will ever get back to the point in my life where I was, and I certainly can not say I am at a point in my life that any of you will really like or agree with, but right now I have to make sure whatever is there is there because it is Me, and what I want. Hopefully one day it will all make sense to me and everyone else.