(had some more last night)
You know what? I just typed an entire entry about my dreams. Because I just want to put it somewhere, so I know I'm not crazy, you know?
Then I erased it all, because I know that if I left it up, people would think I am insane. Just totally fucked-up.
Maybe I am.
I really can't stand them anymore.
I hate waking up in cold sweats, or gasping for air constantly.
I really do.
But thats the name of the game.
And somehow I just wish I could talk to someone about it, and make it go away you know?
But I can't.
So whats the fucking point of posting them? None of you need to hear about that shit.
I fucked up.
I should make another LJ nobody knows about so I can post what I actually want to write about there huh?
Yeah.
Probably.
Then I erased it all, because I know that if I left it up, people would think I am insane. Just totally fucked-up.
Maybe I am.
I really can't stand them anymore.
I hate waking up in cold sweats, or gasping for air constantly.
I really do.
But thats the name of the game.
And somehow I just wish I could talk to someone about it, and make it go away you know?
But I can't.
So whats the fucking point of posting them? None of you need to hear about that shit.
I fucked up.
I should make another LJ nobody knows about so I can post what I actually want to write about there huh?
Yeah.
Probably.