Freedom
I've spent the past few months examining my life and have finally come to the realization that I just am not built for relationships. I constantly struggle with romantic relationships. After the 6 month mark, the misery usually starts. I pick damaged people or people unsuitable for me, and then I try to help/fix them. I need to repair this need in me before I can be in a relationship.
However, now that I realize this about myself, my happiness level jumped up. I'm in the process of sort of "down-grading" my current relationship to great friends / lovers. He's not happy, teetering on the edge of depression, but I'm trying to stay positive and loving and hopefully we can come out of this in a better place. Either way, I am on the road to freedom and feeling really good about it.
However, now that I realize this about myself, my happiness level jumped up. I'm in the process of sort of "down-grading" my current relationship to great friends / lovers. He's not happy, teetering on the edge of depression, but I'm trying to stay positive and loving and hopefully we can come out of this in a better place. Either way, I am on the road to freedom and feeling really good about it.