Thoughts from vacay
I'm laying in a cozy bed in a quiet, cute little room in the catskill mountains. This weekend getaway has been great. When i booked it last month, i was in a lot of mental distress... But lately, I've been cool. I almost felt like this was excessive.
BUT there is value in every adventure, and Extra EXTRA value in doing things alone. Earlier today i found myself missing TJ, and started to scold myself... But then i realized, it's OKAY. It's equally as important to realize what you do miss from what you don't miss.
Its also okay to have tons of goals & projects... as well as time for laziness. Time to learn/work and time to do what's easy.
I've pretty much been milling about in my room, venturing out for food & booze, listening to music, watching disenchantment S3, taking fancy baths, cross stitching.
I also wandered around Woodstock today. Not the actual site from the concert, but their little downtown area. Really reminded me of New Hope PA. Got some great garments from a vintage shop, a nice cup of coffee, some Korean noodles, and some beer from the Woostock brewery.
Oh... TJ and i are buying a house 🖤 we had to go over some stuff with our realtor using FB video chat today 😂 It was only the third house we looked at.... but it was perfect. 3br 1bath (tj will put in a 2nd bathroom), basement, attic, huge garage, fenced in yard, pond, beautiful study with skylights that will be my future tiki bar, brand new appliances.
The house was a flip so it's all refurbished and new and THE PRICE WAS RIGHT.
We never thought they'd accept our offer but they did!!! And all my weird fears about the commitment of owning a house, and owning a house WITH someone, have subsided. I know TJ is my forever human.
Im starting another round of fertility treatments, too. I kinda liked having the month off.... but what the heck. Give it another try. If it doesn't work this time, I'll do IVF in a couple months.