2021
The intention I've set for the new year is to Heal. I've been feeling this way for a couple weeks, but new years seems like an official marker. Im ready to heal, im ready to move forward, im going to find peace & small joys, im going to trust my intuition, im going to live inside my body instead of the clouds.... im going to know when i should be working/learning versus saying "screw it, eat a snack and take a nap". More kickboxing, more yoga.
i took a break from the fertility treatments and im glad i did. This year my plan is to try one more round of IUI, then try IVF, then after that i will stop beating a dead horse and start the adoption process. We are buying a house this year. But im also going to focus on other aspects of my life, instead of the one thing consuming all my energy. I want to get a table at the Art Walk or Punk Rock Flea Market and sell some of my cute cross stitch pieces. Make a few bucks, and spend time around artsy ppl.
Burlesque is pretty low priority. What a wild ride. Id like to perform one more time, but otherwise im moving on. I have no regrets and wouldnt change a thing!
I also finally cut off Tony. I really, really wanted to stay friends. Hes a good person, albeit very damaged. I just cant jeopardize my future family by maintaining a friendship with him. I had some really great times with him and I miss him. But I gotta look out for myself first. I AM, AND ALWAYS HAVE BEEN, MY OWN ADVOCATE.
I miss my parents. I know they're chillin in heaven, spending quality time with my future babys soul (bio or adopted).
i took a break from the fertility treatments and im glad i did. This year my plan is to try one more round of IUI, then try IVF, then after that i will stop beating a dead horse and start the adoption process. We are buying a house this year. But im also going to focus on other aspects of my life, instead of the one thing consuming all my energy. I want to get a table at the Art Walk or Punk Rock Flea Market and sell some of my cute cross stitch pieces. Make a few bucks, and spend time around artsy ppl.
Burlesque is pretty low priority. What a wild ride. Id like to perform one more time, but otherwise im moving on. I have no regrets and wouldnt change a thing!
I also finally cut off Tony. I really, really wanted to stay friends. Hes a good person, albeit very damaged. I just cant jeopardize my future family by maintaining a friendship with him. I had some really great times with him and I miss him. But I gotta look out for myself first. I AM, AND ALWAYS HAVE BEEN, MY OWN ADVOCATE.
I miss my parents. I know they're chillin in heaven, spending quality time with my future babys soul (bio or adopted).