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really. what should i do? i just don't have a clue anymore. i wish someone would show me the way. i don't know what is right anymore. maybe life is just wrong. i put my heart and soul into something and what do i get? i just don't know. i'm frustrated. so god damn frustrated. i just wish someone would take the time to be with me and help me through this. i've sheltered myself too much to have anyone around here do that. what should i do? i keep trying. so hard. so god damn hard. i'm broken. i'm in a million pieces. and every time i think someone is going to pick me back up and make me whole again, they instead smash me into a million more. i fight so hard to be around you. so hard for your love and affection. what do i have to do to earn your approval? what do i have to do to be one? to be whole? to be fixed? where do i go? what do i do? how can i be what i want? every single time i can see it. every time i get a glimpse of what i want, i fall. i'm a fallen angel. i've fallen from the heavens and am no longer of use. i'm trying to find my own way. trying to find what i want, what i need. but how do i get it? how do i get you? how do i get what i want?
Pacific sun,
You should have warned us it gets so cold here
And the night can freeze before you set a fire
And our flames go unnoticed, diminished
Faded just as soon as they are fired
We are, we are, intrigued
We are, we are invisible
Oh how we shouted, how we screamed
Take notice, take interest, take me with you
When all our fears fall on the deaf ears tonight
They're burning the roads they built to lead us to the light
And blinding our hearts with their shining lies
We're closing our caskets, cold and tight
But im dying to live...
Pacific sun,
You should have warned us these heights are dizzying
And the climb can kill you long before the fall
And our trails go unmarked and unmapped and...
Covered just as soon as they are crossed
We are, we are, intriguing
We are, we are, desirable
Oh how we shouted, how we screamed
Take notice, take interest, take me with you
When all our fears fall on the deaf ears tonight
They're burning the roads they built to lead us to the light
And blinding our hearts with their shining lies
We're closing our caskets, cold and tight
But im dying to live...
Oh how we shouted, how we screamed
Take notice, take interest, take me with you
When all our fears fall on the deaf ears tonight
They're burning the roads they built to lead us to the light
And blinding our hearts with their shining lies
We're closing our caskets, cold and tight
But im dying to live...
Pacific sun,
You should have warned us it gets so cold here
And the night can freeze before you set a fire
And our flames go unnoticed, diminished
Faded just as soon as they are fired
We are, we are, intrigued
We are, we are invisible
Oh how we shouted, how we screamed
Take notice, take interest, take me with you
When all our fears fall on the deaf ears tonight
They're burning the roads they built to lead us to the light
And blinding our hearts with their shining lies
We're closing our caskets, cold and tight
But im dying to live...
Pacific sun,
You should have warned us these heights are dizzying
And the climb can kill you long before the fall
And our trails go unmarked and unmapped and...
Covered just as soon as they are crossed
We are, we are, intriguing
We are, we are, desirable
Oh how we shouted, how we screamed
Take notice, take interest, take me with you
When all our fears fall on the deaf ears tonight
They're burning the roads they built to lead us to the light
And blinding our hearts with their shining lies
We're closing our caskets, cold and tight
But im dying to live...
Oh how we shouted, how we screamed
Take notice, take interest, take me with you
When all our fears fall on the deaf ears tonight
They're burning the roads they built to lead us to the light
And blinding our hearts with their shining lies
We're closing our caskets, cold and tight
But im dying to live...