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i find myself hyperventilating more than i ever have.
i don't know if it's because i don't allow myself to cry and my emotions just become too much for my mind and body to handle, or what? it's definitely a scary thing.
i'm emotionally unstable.
if someone says anything to me that i could easily take as a personal attack-i cry. and if i'm not crying i'm thinking about crying, and if i'm not thinking about crying i'm hyperventilating.
sometimes they don't need to say anything, just the fact that they don't talk to me makes me think i did something wrong, and then my mind just goes crazy and i think of all the things i might have done wrong to that person. and it's a terrible cycle.
i need to come up with $600 to move in by the end of September.
and now the hyperventilating begins...
i don't know if it's because i don't allow myself to cry and my emotions just become too much for my mind and body to handle, or what? it's definitely a scary thing.
i'm emotionally unstable.
if someone says anything to me that i could easily take as a personal attack-i cry. and if i'm not crying i'm thinking about crying, and if i'm not thinking about crying i'm hyperventilating.
sometimes they don't need to say anything, just the fact that they don't talk to me makes me think i did something wrong, and then my mind just goes crazy and i think of all the things i might have done wrong to that person. and it's a terrible cycle.
i need to come up with $600 to move in by the end of September.
and now the hyperventilating begins...