So.............fuck my life
Still one semi private place to write that I know no one will come and bother me. Today has been a horriable birthday.....ontop of the wreck and the shitty things my parents had to say....Rennie hasn't called once. Or even texted. I really didn't expect this. It hurts bad to know someone you care about so much can just forget something like your birthday.....after talking about it with you on serveral occasions and even talking about maybe trying to do something....I dunno. I'm done with this though. It's obvious she doesn't have time in her life for me, or doesn't want to make time. I just hate feeling like I wasn't time and emotions on someone after being careful for so long not to let myself do that again. As far as I'm concerned I'm completly single. Dating no one. I'm not letting myself get emotionally attached to another girl that's for sure and I'm not calling this one or texting her again. I havn't all day....and only sent a few texts about random shit yesterday and the day before. We have such good talks when we do talk but I dunno. Maybe I give too much emotionally for what I get in return.
But like I said I'm sure as shit not doing this again. Girls only want one fucking thing from a dude, and that's for us to treat you like shit. I've known that long enough, and tried to be mature and do the right thing and hold my tongue and show her who I really was and shit. Dumb idea. I should have just treated her like shit and made fun of her because that's what people like this really respond to. They say their looking for "something different" but they aren't, they are looking for the same ole thing that fucked them over 4132431 times before.
I'm not going to spend my fucking birthday alone god dammit. I'm going to go out here in a min and find some girl to bring home.I've kept my dick under wraps for 2 months for this dame.....and it's time to find someone with actualy time to give me some attention, even if it's a drunken meaningless romp.
brett taylor
But like I said I'm sure as shit not doing this again. Girls only want one fucking thing from a dude, and that's for us to treat you like shit. I've known that long enough, and tried to be mature and do the right thing and hold my tongue and show her who I really was and shit. Dumb idea. I should have just treated her like shit and made fun of her because that's what people like this really respond to. They say their looking for "something different" but they aren't, they are looking for the same ole thing that fucked them over 4132431 times before.
I'm not going to spend my fucking birthday alone god dammit. I'm going to go out here in a min and find some girl to bring home.I've kept my dick under wraps for 2 months for this dame.....and it's time to find someone with actualy time to give me some attention, even if it's a drunken meaningless romp.
brett taylor