End of a relationship
My baby sister was stillborn. In my first job my boss bullied me. My husband texted me to say he wanted to separate. I wonder why thr worst thing you can imagine can and does always happen. I often wonder what it is about me, why I drive people away, why my own husband can't stand me and hates me with such vitriol as he put in his email. What if I feel like a victim but am actually an inherently evil person who is fundamentally unloveable, as he says? I have struggled with these questions my whole life and now my husband seems to have confirmed my deepest darkest fears.... That I am too screwed up, to difficult, too mentally unstable for anyone to ever love. No one can ever live with me, if they try they end up leaving me.
Life is not good at the moment.
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