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I should probably get off my ass and update this thing more often. Well anyways, a lot has been happening lately, but where to begin???
I finished my summer classes, and I did pretty well in them. However, that left me with only 3 weeks of time off, before fall classes started. :(
But in those 3 weeks I've started smoking a pack a day, drank almost non-stop, done drugs 5 times, constantly wished I was dead, and let a guy, who is not my fiance, feel me up. Yeah, depression sucks. I'm ashamed of all that, but I realize that I must take responsibility for all of my actions. I've let my self down and others around me down. What the hell have I done? I really did just want to die.
But I'm doing better now, thanks to the support of friends. (Thank you to everyone for your support.) But I need to talk to Michael about all this and see what becomes of it. I know that I've betrayed him but I hope he can forgive me for my mistakes. I never meant to hurt him. I love him so much.
I finished my summer classes, and I did pretty well in them. However, that left me with only 3 weeks of time off, before fall classes started. :(
But in those 3 weeks I've started smoking a pack a day, drank almost non-stop, done drugs 5 times, constantly wished I was dead, and let a guy, who is not my fiance, feel me up. Yeah, depression sucks. I'm ashamed of all that, but I realize that I must take responsibility for all of my actions. I've let my self down and others around me down. What the hell have I done? I really did just want to die.
But I'm doing better now, thanks to the support of friends. (Thank you to everyone for your support.) But I need to talk to Michael about all this and see what becomes of it. I know that I've betrayed him but I hope he can forgive me for my mistakes. I never meant to hurt him. I love him so much.