Uncaring about the need for sleep.

Mar 06, 2013 00:26

Welp, I'm 27 now. My dad has passed away. He left on Dec. 29th, 2012. The first of 2013 was a life changing day when I found out. I cried for the first time in probably five years alone in my room for probably an hour. I think that was the most alone I've ever felt. My older half brother that no one really knows about, Jason, kept saying on the phone "He's gone! He's gone." in the same tone my dad told me about his mom leaving him "she's gone! She's gone." I don't think I've ever been the same since he left.

All my prerequisites are complete. I finished with a 3.91 gpa to be exact, and I'm pretty proud of myself. But I won't really reward myself until I get that degree. I just applied to several nursing schools and now I just wait to hear from them.

I have a girlfriend named Kelsey who also my best friend. I asked her to be my girlfriend on 11/11/11. It wasn't planned to be that date. We randomly went back to her room in her apartment because she forgot something and as she grabbed it, she then turned around to go. Then, I asked her to be my girlfriend without even thinking, as if my mouth had a mind of it's own that didn't need my permission to speak. It was perfect and so was the timing I guess.

Now I'm working for Action Window and Gutter Cleaning every day and question what the fuck I'm doing with my life as I wait to hear from nursing schools.

It's the end of winter and I'm getting impatient.
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