the only things you can ever regret are the things you never did
so, something has been in the back of my mind on an off
for the past weeks
something from the past, something i didnt see standing
right in front of my face
Jessika is a lovely girl i have known for a while.
and in the peak of us getting to know each other
we shared a lot of crazy personal things
and got really close
started to hang out
became good friends
i thought myself selfish for having such a crush on her
girls always get that from guys
they let us in
and we fall for them
so i didnt act on my growing crush
i sacrificed what i wanted, for a solid friendship
thinking she couldnt possibly like me in the same way
i would like her
funny thing, myspace truth box
i sent an anonymous comment to her
err, let me just show you instead of explaining:
she then wanted to know who it was who sent it
so after a little back and forth i came clean:
the shocker is how she responded:
now it may be possible that her reply might have been fluffed
possibly to save my feelings
but i know there is a level of truth within those words
i dont know
i guess my point of this whole thing
is that we've all got those opportunities to get exactly what we want
but we find excuses and faulty reasons why we cant have it
and we validate our reasons not to act on what we really want
im not a dumb kid
i learn from history, and if this has taught me anything
its not to be bitter
or to try to chase these passed feelings
its to learn from them
and not ever let this happen again
im making a solid vow to myself to never ever let this
go down again
which is key right now
Catrina, im going to meet you
and we're going to hang out
and its going to be fun
thats all i know =]