a dream within a dream expelling a silent scream
last night i had the loveliest dream in what seemed to be forever.
i dont know if it was due to me being really sick and on meds, or
because i've been sick i've been forced to sleep...
but this dream was so amazing that when i found myself waking up
i tried hanging on so desperately
to make the dream stick
to stay in it as long as possible.
it was so beautiful.
so simple
the setting was simple. a room a shade shy of fully lit.
it was me and "her". we were both staring into a large mirror
both of us afraid of what we might be looking at, but both calmed
by the company of one another. i looked at myself and her. we were
leaning into each other as close as possible, faces touching, cheek to cheek
as we talked to each other and laughed at silly nothings. looking into
the mirror i looked directly into her eyes and sincerely found everything
i could have ever wanted or needed. she looked back into mine, her eyes
smiled. while caught in amazing conversation and hand holding she kissed
my cheek. i felt it; in real life. it was such an amazing feeling of pure happiness
and warmth, glee, beauty; in reality its just too much to describe. just a kiss on the
cheek made me feel all of these amazingly wonderful feelings. she kept kissing my
cheek and all i could do was giggle and look at her in the mirror for some time.
i finally caught myself and started kissing her back. first on the cheek and then
our lips met. i can honestly tell you that it was an out of body, first in a lifetime experience.
it was as if i had fallen in love, simply in this dream.
after some time i found myself waking up
i could hear my brain shouting to itself to
let me stay asleep
but it was to no avail
i woke up this morning at 7:38
i sighed, coughed a lot
then just forced myself back to sleep
never to experience the dream again.