Please Help....I need advice!!!
As you all know, I am pregnant (yeah, duh, lol)! Well on that note my hormones are all out of sorts and therefore so are my thoughts and feelings. The past few months have been almost a blur yet a happy and dreadful memory, I know it sounds wierd.
Over the past 2 months I got engaged, my fiance's grandfather passed away, his brother was in a serious motorcycle reck, we thought his mother had cancer, came to find she does not and just recently 2 close friends were in a motorcycle accident and the one that passed away was a very close friend to Greg (my fiance)! Plus he was gone for almost a month working in Ohio. While he was in Ohio my little sister had a little boy, my nephew and that same night Greg was missing in action. He wasnt answering or returning any of my calls and I was in the hosp with my sister worried. Finally at 2am he calls to say he just woke up, and I knew he was completely shitfaced!, He swore on my unborn sons life he wasnt he was sleeping and I hung up! 2 Days later he finally admitted the truth or atleast part of it and said he went to a bar for like 5 hours alone, I dont believe a guy just goes to a bar where he knows nobody alone, I think maybe a stripclub or someones house! I really believed he cheated! Either way he swore on our son and was boldfaced lying, that is sick!!!!
Anyhow, with all of that now passed I feel lost and unsure of my feelings. Greg has been through a ton so I know he hasn't really been himself but all he does is work anymore alllll the time and I just feel like we have this huge gap between us, I'm not sure if its the pressure and stress, if it's someone else, or if I'm just going completely nuts.
In a way I want to run away but at the same time he has made me feel like never before and I know in my heart he loves me and this baby, but I also have a gut instict something is not right! I have no proof as to what he's doing and I feel so damn torn. He has a cheating past and I have a cheated on past could it be in my head because of that? I guess it could but why do I have this feeling. He comes home to me everynight and we are always together I mean I check the phone calls and I even bring him lunch at times, is it still possible for him to cheat???
I cry all the time for no reason anymore because I cant shake this feeling, I don't want to raise my child in a home like this where I feel this way for no reason, or I'm a joke for allowing my man to betray me!
Any idea's as to what I should do, I don't want to make any decisions I'm going to regret, and if Greg truly is faithful to me and cares for me I don't want to lose the best friend or lover I could ever have. He treats me so well and I love him with everything I have, any advice would be greatly appreciated!
Over the past 2 months I got engaged, my fiance's grandfather passed away, his brother was in a serious motorcycle reck, we thought his mother had cancer, came to find she does not and just recently 2 close friends were in a motorcycle accident and the one that passed away was a very close friend to Greg (my fiance)! Plus he was gone for almost a month working in Ohio. While he was in Ohio my little sister had a little boy, my nephew and that same night Greg was missing in action. He wasnt answering or returning any of my calls and I was in the hosp with my sister worried. Finally at 2am he calls to say he just woke up, and I knew he was completely shitfaced!, He swore on my unborn sons life he wasnt he was sleeping and I hung up! 2 Days later he finally admitted the truth or atleast part of it and said he went to a bar for like 5 hours alone, I dont believe a guy just goes to a bar where he knows nobody alone, I think maybe a stripclub or someones house! I really believed he cheated! Either way he swore on our son and was boldfaced lying, that is sick!!!!
Anyhow, with all of that now passed I feel lost and unsure of my feelings. Greg has been through a ton so I know he hasn't really been himself but all he does is work anymore alllll the time and I just feel like we have this huge gap between us, I'm not sure if its the pressure and stress, if it's someone else, or if I'm just going completely nuts.
In a way I want to run away but at the same time he has made me feel like never before and I know in my heart he loves me and this baby, but I also have a gut instict something is not right! I have no proof as to what he's doing and I feel so damn torn. He has a cheating past and I have a cheated on past could it be in my head because of that? I guess it could but why do I have this feeling. He comes home to me everynight and we are always together I mean I check the phone calls and I even bring him lunch at times, is it still possible for him to cheat???
I cry all the time for no reason anymore because I cant shake this feeling, I don't want to raise my child in a home like this where I feel this way for no reason, or I'm a joke for allowing my man to betray me!
Any idea's as to what I should do, I don't want to make any decisions I'm going to regret, and if Greg truly is faithful to me and cares for me I don't want to lose the best friend or lover I could ever have. He treats me so well and I love him with everything I have, any advice would be greatly appreciated!