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Is there something about the way I present myself that says 'please lie to me and pretend to be my friend, and then ditch me to hang out with other people'? Argh. I've had obscenely flakey friends lately. Or they invite me, but far too late for me to do anything about it. Cisco and I were discussing this last night, and its different when a friend is consistently flakey, because there's some intrinsic part of their personality that causes them to be so, than when a friend who was originally reliable sporadically changes.
Aside from that, I had an epic moment on friday. I was at Shannon's (and hopefully mine, eventually) guild drum circle/meeting (at which I was awkward and probably annoying, so I sat outside for a large chunk of it and chainsmoked, but would still like to go to more regardless), and I noticed a guy who looked vaguely like someone I used to know. It turned out, I did know him. At the time, it was a lot more mind-blowing than I'm making it sound, but when you haven't seen a person in four or five years, and never expect to see them again, and then they suddenly pop up, its a big WTF moment. Unfortunately, we figured out that we knew each other too late (I was leaving), so he took down my number, and theoretically we should hang out sometime.
Of course, now I'm doubting myself and wondering if he was as enthusiastic about seeing me again, and maybe I'm just doing that thing I do where I shove myself on people who, in reality, really don't care or want to hang out, but they will occasionally, just to be nice. And I know I obsess over this idea way more than I should, but with people, that really seems how it goes.
Goddamnit, in my head this was supposed to be a much more upbeat and pleasant post.
Aside from that, I had an epic moment on friday. I was at Shannon's (and hopefully mine, eventually) guild drum circle/meeting (at which I was awkward and probably annoying, so I sat outside for a large chunk of it and chainsmoked, but would still like to go to more regardless), and I noticed a guy who looked vaguely like someone I used to know. It turned out, I did know him. At the time, it was a lot more mind-blowing than I'm making it sound, but when you haven't seen a person in four or five years, and never expect to see them again, and then they suddenly pop up, its a big WTF moment. Unfortunately, we figured out that we knew each other too late (I was leaving), so he took down my number, and theoretically we should hang out sometime.
Of course, now I'm doubting myself and wondering if he was as enthusiastic about seeing me again, and maybe I'm just doing that thing I do where I shove myself on people who, in reality, really don't care or want to hang out, but they will occasionally, just to be nice. And I know I obsess over this idea way more than I should, but with people, that really seems how it goes.
Goddamnit, in my head this was supposed to be a much more upbeat and pleasant post.