i long to spread my wings and fly into the light

[inksmears]

leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. tell me about your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. tell me about what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on your friends list, and tell me why you continue to come back

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[inksmears]

I can't say anything to you. Words are just words. My own life has not been rainbow and sunshines either but I am luckier than most. I'm here to listen. I know I've sort of preached up above but that's just my response to things. To try and offer help, take it or leave it.

I am an optimistic person. I know the world is cruel and terrible but I can still see beauty in it. That's just the way I've always been ever since I can remember. When I was eight/nine I nearly died and spent many a long months in a bitter recovery process as a result. I was lucky. I came out alive and relatively unscathed because I believed I would be okay. I fought to keep going. So I lived and remained optimistic.

I'm not an angel or a saint or a selfless person. I'm not trying to sit here and convince everyone that the world is beautiful and you should love it. I'm aware that not everyone is as lucky as me. All I know how to do is try to help those I can--those I love and those I know--to the best of my ability. Which is unfortunately not everyone because I'm just a 22 year old college student struggling in her own right. So there are many, many things beyond my power.

But I still won't ever lose hope. That's just the way I am.

[inksmears]

I almost wonder if you could guess who I am without the anon mask. Just know that it's that blissful optimism that always makes me befriend people like you.

I miss having hope. :(

[inksmears]

Ahh.... maybe?? m-maybe not, i'm no good with that, haha. i wish i could give you all of my optimism but. unrealistic, etc. etc.

I hope you can find it again someday, somehow.

[inksmears]

I'm a great actor. People still seem to think I'm a nice enough person, so I must be doing it right.

Probably not, but the wishes are still nice. Just know I still love you Yukiii~ ♥

[inksmears]

Yeah, I guess you are.

Well I'll keep wishin' for ya. Futile or not. :) Aww, thanks. I love you too. ♥