aaah, that's better...
granted I'm not by any means cured; but DAMN! the side - effects are wonderful!!! I can even accept the following:
My marriage aside there are things that are bothering me:
My best friend who knows damn well how I feel about the subject insists that I need to tell her it's ok... "... take me as I am or don't take me at all..."
I have come to the conclusion that for as much as anyone would like to think so it takes a very rare individual to separate that past from the present enough to be friends with someone you've shared intimacy with. Forgiveness is possible for sins of the past but the separation isn't possible the stigma remains. ".. these sunsets seem the same, fools weep but I know better; I will remember them, I will remember yesterday..."
The idiot in me (c'mon admit it; u've got one too)wants it to just blow over and thinks it will but at the same time I don't think things can be the same between her and I. If I say it's ok to do what she's doing then it goes against everythign I believe and when I told her it wasn't right she stopped talking to me.
I don't know who reads this if anyone but maybe I can get some insight from someone at some point.
Still, everything is still................
My marriage aside there are things that are bothering me:
My best friend who knows damn well how I feel about the subject insists that I need to tell her it's ok... "... take me as I am or don't take me at all..."
I have come to the conclusion that for as much as anyone would like to think so it takes a very rare individual to separate that past from the present enough to be friends with someone you've shared intimacy with. Forgiveness is possible for sins of the past but the separation isn't possible the stigma remains. ".. these sunsets seem the same, fools weep but I know better; I will remember them, I will remember yesterday..."
The idiot in me (c'mon admit it; u've got one too)wants it to just blow over and thinks it will but at the same time I don't think things can be the same between her and I. If I say it's ok to do what she's doing then it goes against everythign I believe and when I told her it wasn't right she stopped talking to me.
I don't know who reads this if anyone but maybe I can get some insight from someone at some point.
Still, everything is still................