same as space bulletin. still..IMPORTANT
so if you've been trying to reach me, my phone has been 'temporarily out of service'.
i'll be getting a new phone soon, don't know if it's the same number or not because i'm switching to pre-paid :/
i'll keep you all updated to let you know if it's still the same number & what not. if not..i'd have to grab all of your numbers. bummer.
if you really need to get a hold of me&need my house number, message me. let me know.
after saying number so much, it doesn't even sound like a word anymore.
on another note..
today is going to be my 5th day of working in a row.(all closing shifts) hooray for all my dizzles.
i hope i don't spend my money as quickly as previous paychecks. i tend to do that alot..ughh
the more money in my hands..the more i spend. fuck fuck fuck.
band banquet is this friday, i'm getting my speech ready. yes..i will cry my eyes out because band totally ruled my life for 8 years. especially these past 4 years. this is going to be hard.
&saturday is PROM! i didn't think i'd be this excited. i think i'm more excited about the dressing up part more than anything. so i'm getting my make-up done by MAC. i've never ever gotten my make-up done before, i'm reallllly excited. david wild&i are going to look amazing. he's wearing all black, i'm wearing a teal/peacock colored vintage dress(thanks to lana love)+black necklaces, peacock featherd earrings,&black Irregular Choice shoes that i got for 20 bucks biiitch. lots&lots of pictures will happen. this dancing machine hasn't danced a night away in months..i'm going to tear it up. HAHAH. if you know me, seriously,you know i will.
i don't care if the whole world reads this. it's something i have to let out because if i don't i'll leave it all inside to eat me up:
dear mr. aldor,
i hate drunken phone calls/text messages that are from someone you really care about, who have hurt you&are hurting you even more w/ the nonsense that comes out of their ass.just a couple of days ago, i looked passed alot of things&realized how much our friendship meant to me. i wrote you a thank card,even.(for my scrapbook,i had to choose 3 people who have made the biggest impact in my high school years)which was really hard because of our awkward situation. i wanted to give it to you, soon. but now..i really don't know. it upset me that you had to be drunk to communicate w/ me. it bothered me all day that you wanted to talk but i had all these questions in my mind of whether you really missed me&wanted to talk, or whether you were just being needy again&needed to use me as a fall back or whether you were just flat out drunk. these times where i needed you the most, you've abandoned me, i've lost you. is it all worth losing me? i guess i know where i stand now. i kinda knew that awhile ago, but now you've really reassured me. honestly, i hate how i don't know who you really are anymore. make a comeback joe, i wish you would. because as tough as i've been&as much as i tell myself not to care at all&as much as i've been smiling so no pain really shows&as much as i've been going out with all my friends,&spending time w/ my family, i've done a really good job of keeping myself preoccupied so i could forget about you&how much you've hurt me. but in the end i'd be lying if i said i really didn't miss you.us.what happened to my best friend?just understand that i'm not ready to talk to you, until it's really you.
i'll be getting a new phone soon, don't know if it's the same number or not because i'm switching to pre-paid :/
i'll keep you all updated to let you know if it's still the same number & what not. if not..i'd have to grab all of your numbers. bummer.
if you really need to get a hold of me&need my house number, message me. let me know.
after saying number so much, it doesn't even sound like a word anymore.
on another note..
today is going to be my 5th day of working in a row.(all closing shifts) hooray for all my dizzles.
i hope i don't spend my money as quickly as previous paychecks. i tend to do that alot..ughh
the more money in my hands..the more i spend. fuck fuck fuck.
band banquet is this friday, i'm getting my speech ready. yes..i will cry my eyes out because band totally ruled my life for 8 years. especially these past 4 years. this is going to be hard.
&saturday is PROM! i didn't think i'd be this excited. i think i'm more excited about the dressing up part more than anything. so i'm getting my make-up done by MAC. i've never ever gotten my make-up done before, i'm reallllly excited. david wild&i are going to look amazing. he's wearing all black, i'm wearing a teal/peacock colored vintage dress(thanks to lana love)+black necklaces, peacock featherd earrings,&black Irregular Choice shoes that i got for 20 bucks biiitch. lots&lots of pictures will happen. this dancing machine hasn't danced a night away in months..i'm going to tear it up. HAHAH. if you know me, seriously,you know i will.
i don't care if the whole world reads this. it's something i have to let out because if i don't i'll leave it all inside to eat me up:
dear mr. aldor,
i hate drunken phone calls/text messages that are from someone you really care about, who have hurt you&are hurting you even more w/ the nonsense that comes out of their ass.just a couple of days ago, i looked passed alot of things&realized how much our friendship meant to me. i wrote you a thank card,even.(for my scrapbook,i had to choose 3 people who have made the biggest impact in my high school years)which was really hard because of our awkward situation. i wanted to give it to you, soon. but now..i really don't know. it upset me that you had to be drunk to communicate w/ me. it bothered me all day that you wanted to talk but i had all these questions in my mind of whether you really missed me&wanted to talk, or whether you were just being needy again&needed to use me as a fall back or whether you were just flat out drunk. these times where i needed you the most, you've abandoned me, i've lost you. is it all worth losing me? i guess i know where i stand now. i kinda knew that awhile ago, but now you've really reassured me. honestly, i hate how i don't know who you really are anymore. make a comeback joe, i wish you would. because as tough as i've been&as much as i tell myself not to care at all&as much as i've been smiling so no pain really shows&as much as i've been going out with all my friends,&spending time w/ my family, i've done a really good job of keeping myself preoccupied so i could forget about you&how much you've hurt me. but in the end i'd be lying if i said i really didn't miss you.us.what happened to my best friend?just understand that i'm not ready to talk to you, until it's really you.