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i'm honestly lost. i feel empty.
this year i need to focus on me. making myself happy. i don't know what i need to do but i need to do it.
having hpv is making me dislike sex. and even if i do have sex again i want it to be with somebody i'm married to. that actually cares for me. that loves me. i don't even feel attractive anymore. there are days where i think i look really good but it's not the same since i found out.
i'm always by myself but i'm starting to feel lonely and i hate it. i don't go out. i haven't seen a lot of my "friends". i guess because of the whole season of giving and love and blah blah bull. i didn't get any of that.
i'm not super depressed just kinda waiting for God's plan to kick in.
i just need to keep my head up, love myself, and love life.
this year i need to focus on me. making myself happy. i don't know what i need to do but i need to do it.
having hpv is making me dislike sex. and even if i do have sex again i want it to be with somebody i'm married to. that actually cares for me. that loves me. i don't even feel attractive anymore. there are days where i think i look really good but it's not the same since i found out.
i'm always by myself but i'm starting to feel lonely and i hate it. i don't go out. i haven't seen a lot of my "friends". i guess because of the whole season of giving and love and blah blah bull. i didn't get any of that.
i'm not super depressed just kinda waiting for God's plan to kick in.
i just need to keep my head up, love myself, and love life.