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I don't know how to describe it. I'm just not there. I simply have no personality any more, and I have no idea how to deal with that. No one is home. I can't even have a conversation with my close friends because I have no input whatsoever. I keep looking, but I'm finding nothing. I've always had at least some semblance of me or what I want to be, but it's not accessible any more. Oh, but I'm such a great person, right? Fuck you. I'm the only one who can tell when I'm not a whole person anymore.
It's gone.
It's gone.