listening to Usher
I think the song is "Burn" I'm at my best friend's house, we are chillin and she is keeping me calm... I'm staring at the bed that is mine... for the night...talking to Eddie... I bought the "Yellowcard" CD I miss Bryan... Well, i did have something witty to say but it left me...I have read through my past entries and i have to wonder... "What the F*CK was i thinking?!?!?!"
My birthday passed a week ago... I'm 1 whole year older...
My past came up and bit me in the @$$ pretty damn hard! It took a lot of Big Snicker hugs and cuddling to stop crying... Yes, i learned how to cry!
*Pause*
how do you react when you finally find out that you are genetically linked to someone that may only 20 minutes from where you currently reside and don't have the will to find them?
here i sit and listen to my best friend talking to and hopefully going to meet my buddy...
On another note i have ahd a publishing company or 2 calling me nearly every day and writing me letters wanting to know if they can publish me...
I need 50 poems to start...
"...Here, a little sympathy
For you to waste on me
I know you're faking but that's ok
and i don't want to drag it out
don't want to bring you down
never wanted it to end this way..."
I've been thinking about different people and how up until 6 months ago i probably would have liked nothing better than to see them again and be...
but i realized in my self contained relationship I am happier than i have ever been and when I lay down at night and i feel the safety of his arms wrap around me so tight i feel at peace... finally, after years of searching and screwing around i found it... though not always easy it is as i please...
I have found peace in chaos and Ecstasy in epiphany...
I'll say it...
I have found my peace.
My birthday passed a week ago... I'm 1 whole year older...
My past came up and bit me in the @$$ pretty damn hard! It took a lot of Big Snicker hugs and cuddling to stop crying... Yes, i learned how to cry!
*Pause*
how do you react when you finally find out that you are genetically linked to someone that may only 20 minutes from where you currently reside and don't have the will to find them?
here i sit and listen to my best friend talking to and hopefully going to meet my buddy...
On another note i have ahd a publishing company or 2 calling me nearly every day and writing me letters wanting to know if they can publish me...
I need 50 poems to start...
"...Here, a little sympathy
For you to waste on me
I know you're faking but that's ok
and i don't want to drag it out
don't want to bring you down
never wanted it to end this way..."
I've been thinking about different people and how up until 6 months ago i probably would have liked nothing better than to see them again and be...
but i realized in my self contained relationship I am happier than i have ever been and when I lay down at night and i feel the safety of his arms wrap around me so tight i feel at peace... finally, after years of searching and screwing around i found it... though not always easy it is as i please...
I have found peace in chaos and Ecstasy in epiphany...
I'll say it...
I have found my peace.