death is among us
Hmmm, what's new in my life. Well to tell you the truth, nothing really. It's the same old shit day in and day out. I wish I could erase the past two years of my life, and just do it all over again. I wish I didn't just fuck around for two years doing nothing. If I hadn't, maybe I would have a degree right now to show for it. I want to just make a drastic decision, like, I'm joining the military tomorrow. But I can't do that until I have 8 more college credits, therefor it isn't a drastic spontaneous decision, it's a I have three more months to think about this. I just want to wake up tomorrow and be out of this shit hole I call home and be in mastery of arms school down in San Diego. But no, not me, I'm just a dumb ass with a GED that scored higher on the asfab than half the high school graduates, but I guess that still means I'm retarded. Ok, so Spokane isn't all that bad. that's not my point I'm trying to make though. My point is, I'm sick of fucking around. It's time for a change, and it's time for one now. No more basing my decisions on other people feelings. No more holding back to be with friends, cause in the big picture that will get me no where, but backwards. The military and me, might seem a little weird to some of you, but I've actually been considering this for a long time, just never really got up the nerve to act on it. Is my decision for sure yet, I don't know, but I am going to see the recruiter tomorrow, and we'll see how it goes.