[Fanfiction] Reconnecting The Dots
Title: Reconnecting The Dots
Part: One-Shot
Author: inkcharm_666
Fandom: Super Junior (canon-ish)
Characters: Donghae, Kibum, Heechul, Kyuhyun, Eunhyuk, mentions of Hankyung and Zhou Mi
Pairings: KiHae, EunHae, HanChul, KyuMi
Warnings: fluff, angst
Rating: G
Disclaimer: All people mentioned in this story are real people. I do not mean to slight them with this work of fiction, nor to I mean to suggest their life really looks like this. I make no profit out of this story, it is written merely for fun and entertainment of other fans.
Notes: Dedicated to belovedseason who requested a KiHae. I suspect because she knows I love the pairing.
Summary: Donghae has a lot of questions about reconnecting and fails to get a lot of things about it - like what he wishes to reconnect to in the first place.
Reconnecting The Dots
Standing on opposite sides of a cliff. Reaching out hands. Touching despite the miles and lifetimes and empty spaces in between.
He doesn't get it.
Reconnecting.
Donghae wonders if that's an easy thing to happen. If you've been drifting apart, how easy is it to reconnect, really? The fact that you've drifted apart in the first place should already be a bad sign altogether. It means your connection wasn't strong enough to make someone stay by your side.
Right?
He can see it all around him, the ways in which it works and in which it doesn't work.
The awkward phone calls between Heechul and Hankyung, for example. Estranged and drifting further and further apart. Those phone calls always lead to furniture destroyed and Heechul getting wasted. Not as badly as he used to. It's a good sign for Heechul's health, but not a good sign for them. The calls aren't as frequent as they used to be either, and the self-declared space big star smiles these days when he looks at his phone even when the reason for doing so is not Hankyung.
Donghae wonders if that means Heechul doesn't love Hankyung anymore or vice versa. He's tried talking to Heechul about this once, because he knows he's the favourite dongsaeng and he's the only one who won't be killed for asking about this. His hyung never answered, just rolled his eyes and pressed his cell phone into Donghae's hand before walking off. He came back less than twenty seconds later, berating the younger to suck it up and use his own cellphone, but somehow Donghae feels that was never the issue at hand. Maybe Heechul was trying to tell him something, because Heechul always seems to know a lot more than him.
He doesn't get it.
He doesn't get Zhou Mi either. He and Kyuhyun barely ever talk over the phone. Kyuhyun dislikes phone conversations. They distract him from gaming or interrupt his dramas or whatever else has currently caught his fancy. Sometimes they email each other, but it's rarely more than a short 'how are you, I'm fine'. Yet whenever SJM become more active, Donghae sees no difference between the Chinese and the maknae.
Donghae once asked Kyuhyun how they managed to spend so much time apart not or barely talking only to see each other and go on as if that time in between had never happened. Kyuhyun smirked at him and called him a fish and told him he'd see in time. And to shut up while the grown ups were playing games. Donghae frowned in confusion as he left the room, none the wiser.
He doesn't get it.
His hyungs are all weird, even those who are younger than him. Donghae huffs and puffs and can't wrap his head around how it works or how it doesn't work. He barely knows why he's interested in this. It shouldn't matter that Heechul and Hankyung can't reconnect over the distance properly, not beyond how it's still making Heechul unhappy. It should matter even less that whenever Kyuhyun and Zhou Mi meet it's as if they'd never parted. So why does reconnection never quite slip from his thoughts?
Eunhyuk is never happy when he mentions reconnections and the possibilities of it. The topic comes up and they end up having a fight. Eunhyuk keeps asking questions like „Why is this so important to you?“ or „Why can't you just let this go?“ and „If it's that important, why don't you call him?“ Whenever Donghae blinks in confusion, Eunhyuk seems ready to scream or cry or both, which ends with Donghae comforting him. Last time this happened Eunhyuk asked „Why can't you see?“ and Donghae was at a loss for words. What does he need to see? Whom does he need to see?
He doesn't get it.
Sometimes he thinks that's part of the problem. He just wants to be carefree and happy, so he usually is. Donghae sees no need to focus on the things that confuse him too much and that go around in his head when he doesn't know why they'd go around in there. He ignores the tears that push to the forefront when he gets a lot of texts and emails and none of them seem to fill that strange emptiness in his chest that makes his bright smile fake. He ignores that hugging Eunhyuk dulls that ache but will never make it go away. He doesn't know what's going on; Donghae only knows it's getting worse with every passing second.
“If you want to reconnect, do it.“
“We can't bring him back.“
“Are you really that blind?“
He doesn't get it.
Not until a surprise visit one evening. For a second he doesn't recognize the face in front of him. It's grown an unfamiliar mustache - it needs to go, Donghae knows that much - and isn't the same face he saw countless heartbeats ago. It's a stranger. It's nobody he could know. It's everything he wanted to reconnect with.
It's Kibum.
He doesn't realize why Kibum is moving closer until he glances down to see his fists tangled in the other's jacket, and somehow that makes it all real; the time apart, the time together, the warm lips against his own.
And just like that, he finally gets it all.
~*~
Fin
Part: One-Shot
Author: inkcharm_666
Fandom: Super Junior (canon-ish)
Characters: Donghae, Kibum, Heechul, Kyuhyun, Eunhyuk, mentions of Hankyung and Zhou Mi
Pairings: KiHae, EunHae, HanChul, KyuMi
Warnings: fluff, angst
Rating: G
Disclaimer: All people mentioned in this story are real people. I do not mean to slight them with this work of fiction, nor to I mean to suggest their life really looks like this. I make no profit out of this story, it is written merely for fun and entertainment of other fans.
Notes: Dedicated to belovedseason who requested a KiHae. I suspect because she knows I love the pairing.
Summary: Donghae has a lot of questions about reconnecting and fails to get a lot of things about it - like what he wishes to reconnect to in the first place.
Reconnecting The Dots
Standing on opposite sides of a cliff. Reaching out hands. Touching despite the miles and lifetimes and empty spaces in between.
He doesn't get it.
Reconnecting.
Donghae wonders if that's an easy thing to happen. If you've been drifting apart, how easy is it to reconnect, really? The fact that you've drifted apart in the first place should already be a bad sign altogether. It means your connection wasn't strong enough to make someone stay by your side.
Right?
He can see it all around him, the ways in which it works and in which it doesn't work.
The awkward phone calls between Heechul and Hankyung, for example. Estranged and drifting further and further apart. Those phone calls always lead to furniture destroyed and Heechul getting wasted. Not as badly as he used to. It's a good sign for Heechul's health, but not a good sign for them. The calls aren't as frequent as they used to be either, and the self-declared space big star smiles these days when he looks at his phone even when the reason for doing so is not Hankyung.
Donghae wonders if that means Heechul doesn't love Hankyung anymore or vice versa. He's tried talking to Heechul about this once, because he knows he's the favourite dongsaeng and he's the only one who won't be killed for asking about this. His hyung never answered, just rolled his eyes and pressed his cell phone into Donghae's hand before walking off. He came back less than twenty seconds later, berating the younger to suck it up and use his own cellphone, but somehow Donghae feels that was never the issue at hand. Maybe Heechul was trying to tell him something, because Heechul always seems to know a lot more than him.
He doesn't get it.
He doesn't get Zhou Mi either. He and Kyuhyun barely ever talk over the phone. Kyuhyun dislikes phone conversations. They distract him from gaming or interrupt his dramas or whatever else has currently caught his fancy. Sometimes they email each other, but it's rarely more than a short 'how are you, I'm fine'. Yet whenever SJM become more active, Donghae sees no difference between the Chinese and the maknae.
Donghae once asked Kyuhyun how they managed to spend so much time apart not or barely talking only to see each other and go on as if that time in between had never happened. Kyuhyun smirked at him and called him a fish and told him he'd see in time. And to shut up while the grown ups were playing games. Donghae frowned in confusion as he left the room, none the wiser.
He doesn't get it.
His hyungs are all weird, even those who are younger than him. Donghae huffs and puffs and can't wrap his head around how it works or how it doesn't work. He barely knows why he's interested in this. It shouldn't matter that Heechul and Hankyung can't reconnect over the distance properly, not beyond how it's still making Heechul unhappy. It should matter even less that whenever Kyuhyun and Zhou Mi meet it's as if they'd never parted. So why does reconnection never quite slip from his thoughts?
Eunhyuk is never happy when he mentions reconnections and the possibilities of it. The topic comes up and they end up having a fight. Eunhyuk keeps asking questions like „Why is this so important to you?“ or „Why can't you just let this go?“ and „If it's that important, why don't you call him?“ Whenever Donghae blinks in confusion, Eunhyuk seems ready to scream or cry or both, which ends with Donghae comforting him. Last time this happened Eunhyuk asked „Why can't you see?“ and Donghae was at a loss for words. What does he need to see? Whom does he need to see?
He doesn't get it.
Sometimes he thinks that's part of the problem. He just wants to be carefree and happy, so he usually is. Donghae sees no need to focus on the things that confuse him too much and that go around in his head when he doesn't know why they'd go around in there. He ignores the tears that push to the forefront when he gets a lot of texts and emails and none of them seem to fill that strange emptiness in his chest that makes his bright smile fake. He ignores that hugging Eunhyuk dulls that ache but will never make it go away. He doesn't know what's going on; Donghae only knows it's getting worse with every passing second.
“If you want to reconnect, do it.“
“We can't bring him back.“
“Are you really that blind?“
He doesn't get it.
Not until a surprise visit one evening. For a second he doesn't recognize the face in front of him. It's grown an unfamiliar mustache - it needs to go, Donghae knows that much - and isn't the same face he saw countless heartbeats ago. It's a stranger. It's nobody he could know. It's everything he wanted to reconnect with.
It's Kibum.
He doesn't realize why Kibum is moving closer until he glances down to see his fists tangled in the other's jacket, and somehow that makes it all real; the time apart, the time together, the warm lips against his own.
And just like that, he finally gets it all.
~*~
Fin