In Turn
OK: So I'm not continuing. At least not in the same vein. That kind of self-analysis is necessary right now, but I think I'll keep it in a more private journal, maybe stick it under my bed afterwards.
Flesh:
The energy behind this change is a little frightening: On one hand I feel kind of seething and calculating, probably the result of my worries about folks I know and love not reacting well to how I change. On the other, I feel grateful and focused, knowing these are the right moves to make and that I have put myself closest to those people who really do encourage and want my growth.
I am shaking to make it. And I won't lay out the details here, even though the meat of the new person is clear to me. Every plain-jane word may undermine it, make it seem like a school theme paper, rather than the possibly subtle but radical psychological shift I am hoping to start on.
As vague and overblown as this may sound, I know it is possible to make important and serious change that is not melodramatic, that is not flimsy and passing.
OK: Enough of all this. I am done.
Flesh:
The energy behind this change is a little frightening: On one hand I feel kind of seething and calculating, probably the result of my worries about folks I know and love not reacting well to how I change. On the other, I feel grateful and focused, knowing these are the right moves to make and that I have put myself closest to those people who really do encourage and want my growth.
I am shaking to make it. And I won't lay out the details here, even though the meat of the new person is clear to me. Every plain-jane word may undermine it, make it seem like a school theme paper, rather than the possibly subtle but radical psychological shift I am hoping to start on.
As vague and overblown as this may sound, I know it is possible to make important and serious change that is not melodramatic, that is not flimsy and passing.
OK: Enough of all this. I am done.