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ok. i have a lot to say and not a lot of will to say it. so i'm just gonna type stuff. this isn't so much for other people to read, but fortunately i don't think this will be read.
1. i'm sick of this whole waking up and doing stuff then going to sleep then repeat regemin. there has to be an alternate method - i'd like to get all my sleeping done now so i can be more effecient when i hit 40 and i'm really worrying about death.
2. smoking. smoking is fun, exotic, and delicious. if i quit it will be of my own volition...not b/c of your ability to quote the precise number of days i've removed from the end of my life. everyone knows i'm going to die climbing Kilaminjaro anyway.
3. i'm angry. i'm really so angry that i have no control over my life ---which is odd..because i'm not mad at myself, i'm mad at you. huh.
4. not every life includes a happy ending. some people are lucky to have happy middles or happy beginnings. i think i got a happy 4th paragraph on page 20 - the rest is footnotes and spelling errors.
5. there is no class for people who have run out of passion. what do you do when you don't want to do anything? when the only thing that gets someone from today to tomorrow is one's inability to be brave and take authorative steps to solve problems.
6. OH and then what do you do when you don't know what your problems are? you just know you are angry and that you manifest it in every childish way w/o a clear view of the roots of said problems...fuckit. that is ridiculous.
7. i have been called physically and psychologically abusive by my exgirlfriend. i don't think that i was - i think we had a poisonous relationship but i've never struck her and i never stopped her from doing what she wanted to do in her life. i mean, yah i kicked down the stairs, but she was pregnant. i mean, how else do you fix that? kidding. really, kidding.
fuckitfuckingfuckers. fucking let me be.
yay!
dennis
hijinx --three dotted letters in a row. huh?
stewardesses --typed completely w/ the left hand.
1. i'm sick of this whole waking up and doing stuff then going to sleep then repeat regemin. there has to be an alternate method - i'd like to get all my sleeping done now so i can be more effecient when i hit 40 and i'm really worrying about death.
2. smoking. smoking is fun, exotic, and delicious. if i quit it will be of my own volition...not b/c of your ability to quote the precise number of days i've removed from the end of my life. everyone knows i'm going to die climbing Kilaminjaro anyway.
3. i'm angry. i'm really so angry that i have no control over my life ---which is odd..because i'm not mad at myself, i'm mad at you. huh.
4. not every life includes a happy ending. some people are lucky to have happy middles or happy beginnings. i think i got a happy 4th paragraph on page 20 - the rest is footnotes and spelling errors.
5. there is no class for people who have run out of passion. what do you do when you don't want to do anything? when the only thing that gets someone from today to tomorrow is one's inability to be brave and take authorative steps to solve problems.
6. OH and then what do you do when you don't know what your problems are? you just know you are angry and that you manifest it in every childish way w/o a clear view of the roots of said problems...fuckit. that is ridiculous.
7. i have been called physically and psychologically abusive by my exgirlfriend. i don't think that i was - i think we had a poisonous relationship but i've never struck her and i never stopped her from doing what she wanted to do in her life. i mean, yah i kicked down the stairs, but she was pregnant. i mean, how else do you fix that? kidding. really, kidding.
fuckitfuckingfuckers. fucking let me be.
yay!
dennis
hijinx --three dotted letters in a row. huh?
stewardesses --typed completely w/ the left hand.