And everything I promised, and everything I tried..everything I ever did I used to feed the fire...
Yeah, I passed out last night. I woke up an hour and a half ago...and of course I still feel horrible. I appreciate everyone caring and all...especially Amanda. No one else called...but she did...all the way from California. It just makes me so teary knowing someone out there does care...and thanks, Will, for texting me. Oh, and Laura....he never called. = \
Last night during my deep rest I had a very spaced out dream. I saw him...and we were hugging and he kept saying it felt so good because he hadn't seen me in so long. Then I said, "What do you mean, you haven't talked to me in 39 days. And you said your life was 'less complex' without me'?" and he said, "I guess it isn't." Then he promised to call me later...but he never did.
Maybe it's a premonition.
This is the beginning. I'm going to put all of my energy that is regularly directed toward him on my body and my lungs. I have to make them stronger. I have to become stronger...inside and out. I have to become perfect...
Half my life I've been here
Half my life in flames
Using all I ever had to keep the fire ablaze
To keep the fire ablaze
To keep the fire ablaze
To keep the fire ablaze...
But there's nothing left to burn
~Robert Smith
Last night during my deep rest I had a very spaced out dream. I saw him...and we were hugging and he kept saying it felt so good because he hadn't seen me in so long. Then I said, "What do you mean, you haven't talked to me in 39 days. And you said your life was 'less complex' without me'?" and he said, "I guess it isn't." Then he promised to call me later...but he never did.
Maybe it's a premonition.
This is the beginning. I'm going to put all of my energy that is regularly directed toward him on my body and my lungs. I have to make them stronger. I have to become stronger...inside and out. I have to become perfect...
Half my life I've been here
Half my life in flames
Using all I ever had to keep the fire ablaze
To keep the fire ablaze
To keep the fire ablaze
To keep the fire ablaze...
But there's nothing left to burn
~Robert Smith