I don't think I can know anyone but you...
Finally, I'm home. Actually, I returned on July 29th....Pat's birthday. As I'm sure you have all guessed, I still haven't heard from him...it's been twenty-three days since we had last spoken. I've decided I'm not going to tell him I'm home. I know he doesn't read this, because he could care less about what's going on inside my mind...so I ask none of you tell him if the random occasion occurs. My stomach is in knots sitting here; alone, not knowing what he feels...what he thinks....what he wants. I'm dumb to care, dumb to not let go. I'm so...weak. So...powerless, when it comes to him. This is the same old story...but it gets worse every time. Each time he does this it plunges a knew knife in my heart, a new hole. I'm just left here to bleed until there's nothing left of me...nothing left of us. I found a Cure song that I can relate to amazingly. I'll post the lyrics (though I'm not fond of posting lyrics other than my own...).
My trip was a nightmare. I'll post the pictures later. My best friend, Meg Hossler, was here for the past two evenings. It was quite bizarre...on the way home we stopped to drop off my uncle Timmy's Jeep and she saw my fat ass brother flailing down the road back to the RV and made her mom pull over left lane to right. Then I took her home with me...*hehe*.
On the upside the Curiosa Festival is tomorrow and The Cure is mainstage. For my birthday my mother got my four tickets in the centre row, orchestra section...right behind the pit. *^_^* I'm insanely excited...I'm bringing Andrea with me!!
Play ~ The Cure
Day after day
I let you down
Promise you to change
Then change my mind
And every time I promise you
It will all be fine
It won't be like this next time
The days you wait
Turn into years
Always wait
Helpless tears
Hopeless nights
And all the fears
It will always be like this
You give me everything you have
Hoping it will someday be enough
To melt my heart
To make me fall in love
Day after day
I let you down
Promise you to change it all
Then change my mind
And every time I promise you
Soon be fine
It won't be like this next time
But tonight we play I think
The final act
I push too hard
And you crack
Walk away
Don't look back
This time you've really gone
You give me everything you have
Knowing it can never be enough
My heart's too old
Too hard
Too cold
For your love
My trip was a nightmare. I'll post the pictures later. My best friend, Meg Hossler, was here for the past two evenings. It was quite bizarre...on the way home we stopped to drop off my uncle Timmy's Jeep and she saw my fat ass brother flailing down the road back to the RV and made her mom pull over left lane to right. Then I took her home with me...*hehe*.
On the upside the Curiosa Festival is tomorrow and The Cure is mainstage. For my birthday my mother got my four tickets in the centre row, orchestra section...right behind the pit. *^_^* I'm insanely excited...I'm bringing Andrea with me!!
Play ~ The Cure
Day after day
I let you down
Promise you to change
Then change my mind
And every time I promise you
It will all be fine
It won't be like this next time
The days you wait
Turn into years
Always wait
Helpless tears
Hopeless nights
And all the fears
It will always be like this
You give me everything you have
Hoping it will someday be enough
To melt my heart
To make me fall in love
Day after day
I let you down
Promise you to change it all
Then change my mind
And every time I promise you
Soon be fine
It won't be like this next time
But tonight we play I think
The final act
I push too hard
And you crack
Walk away
Don't look back
This time you've really gone
You give me everything you have
Knowing it can never be enough
My heart's too old
Too hard
Too cold
For your love