Aha!
Now i think i've got something. maybe.
not really. i'm just really really bored. Nothing seems to be very much worthwhile anymore. i think i may be looking for something new, or rather for something new to come to me, because I'm definitely not going out and looking for it myself. I've just got no initiative for these things anymore. I don't really know what it is. Could be all the expectations that are seemingly building up on me, from various people who expect me to excel in school, to be a good kid, and various others who most revoltingly expect me to be something completely unlike myself. I seem to be once again getting weary of just about everything. I really do hate this, although i don't entirely know what it is. My spirits crushed by unknown forces, I simply await some sort of restoration. I don't think I can do much more.
not really. i'm just really really bored. Nothing seems to be very much worthwhile anymore. i think i may be looking for something new, or rather for something new to come to me, because I'm definitely not going out and looking for it myself. I've just got no initiative for these things anymore. I don't really know what it is. Could be all the expectations that are seemingly building up on me, from various people who expect me to excel in school, to be a good kid, and various others who most revoltingly expect me to be something completely unlike myself. I seem to be once again getting weary of just about everything. I really do hate this, although i don't entirely know what it is. My spirits crushed by unknown forces, I simply await some sort of restoration. I don't think I can do much more.