here we go again
so, my life has changed.
last time i updated this thing i was at my moms house, on her computer, the day before her last birthday.
a week later i felt a change coming. i wasnt sure how or what was about to change in my life but i knew something was going to happen. i woke up saturday january 15th to quite possibly the most sad day of my life. my moms roomate called me, distraught, he tried to explain to me what had just happened. it was my mom, rushed to the hospital after another heart attack.. this time she didnt make it.
i hadnt had one of those "this isnt real, there is no way this can be real" moments in soo long. that day felt fake, like it was cut out from someone elses life and pasted right in the middle of my almost completely peaceful week.
i wish i could go back.. doesnt everyone when something bad happens?? but just another hour, just one more minute with her & ill be happy.
sigh..
the support i got from my friends and famiy during that impossible time was unbelieveable though. it felt so awesome to have everyone come together like that for me. it made things a little easier to handle... i still think about her a lot, of course... its just a strange feeling to know i will never even get to talk to her again. i feel like a lost soul, just wondering the earth searching for comfort.
ten minutes until i have to pick my sister from work... so much more to say and now i have a laptop so i can write on here more often..
until next time..
much love<3
last time i updated this thing i was at my moms house, on her computer, the day before her last birthday.
a week later i felt a change coming. i wasnt sure how or what was about to change in my life but i knew something was going to happen. i woke up saturday january 15th to quite possibly the most sad day of my life. my moms roomate called me, distraught, he tried to explain to me what had just happened. it was my mom, rushed to the hospital after another heart attack.. this time she didnt make it.
i hadnt had one of those "this isnt real, there is no way this can be real" moments in soo long. that day felt fake, like it was cut out from someone elses life and pasted right in the middle of my almost completely peaceful week.
i wish i could go back.. doesnt everyone when something bad happens?? but just another hour, just one more minute with her & ill be happy.
sigh..
the support i got from my friends and famiy during that impossible time was unbelieveable though. it felt so awesome to have everyone come together like that for me. it made things a little easier to handle... i still think about her a lot, of course... its just a strange feeling to know i will never even get to talk to her again. i feel like a lost soul, just wondering the earth searching for comfort.
ten minutes until i have to pick my sister from work... so much more to say and now i have a laptop so i can write on here more often..
until next time..
much love<3