wow... i sang my ass off friday night... that's all i have to say. and all u motherfuckers who missed it should feel bad, cuz u all should have been there. this will change EVERYTHING. jacque was so proud of me, and that makes me happy. fuck those band members... i did damn well for my first professional gig... assholes.

so i'm insecure, sue me! it sucks just as much for me as it does for all of u who have to deal with me. i just always feel inadequate, no matter what. u could tell me u love me a million times and i still don't feel like i'm good enough. my parents love me... i know this... they're my parents, i still feel like everything i do or don't do lets ( Read more... )

ok, i need real friends... and i need a life... like yesterday ( Read more... )

i really do want to vent right now... but i'm just so speechless, there's no way to verbalize how i feel.

but it's bad

wow, i've been in meltdown mode for like the last week... and having been in tears for the last few days now. over everything and nothing at all. jacque says i'm goin through some kind of cleansing... something's changing and i gotta get out all the crap... i just wish it would end soon. luckily, i can contain myself at work, but every little ( Read more... )

hmmm, it's been a couple days. i'm not really sure what to write about. i'm really confused about this boy. i'm not sure if he realizes that or not, but i'm too much of a pussy to put it out there to him. so i suffer. he's on my mind a lot. prolly not the best guy i've ever fallen for, but oh well, whattya gonna do ( Read more... )

i hate my friends... actually just one in particular. she's not on lj, but just to be fair, i won't used her name. she's done this to me twice now. says one thing in the morning, doesn't something different that night. it gets very aggrivating. especially since i wanted to have a girls night last night and i wanted to chill with her. she's ( Read more... )

well... i told HIM that i could no longer sleep with him, cuz it was really fucking with me head. and now i feel weird. i know things are gonna be weird now, even though he says it won't be... it will. i guess it's not as simple as me just not having sex with him... i want more from him. i can't just have sex with him without gettin hurt... so ( Read more... )

tomorrow... july 2... rhumbline in gloucester... Diva Ho-Down. doors open at 7, show starts at 8... $15 for tickets... it's gonna be fucking awesome! come visit me, i'll be the one in the pink boa!

so, i just realized that like... i don't have a close group of girl friends. like i have friends who are girls, but most of them don't know each other, and most of them are from work. weird. i kinda feel like i'm missing out on something. i dunno, i'd just much rather chill with a bunch of guys than with a lot of girls. especially girls i don' ( Read more... )