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I just got back from Bellingham. I took 4 commuter buses up there, it was a long journey but it was really peaceful and super cheap! (I only spent $2.50 on the buses!) It felt so good to be there. As soon as I arrived I felt safe & at home. It was nice being around people who were going through the same thing, and to not have to pretend you're doing awesome when someone asks "hows it going". I was finally able to do a lot of writing and it felt so good to finally put on paper my emotions and thoughts.
So I made the decision that I want to go back to school and finish my degree. I had been thinking of going to Portland because it sounds like such a neat city. After talking with friends, my mom & my heart, I dont think that I would be happy moving away to another city alone. I want to finish school, I want to be able to find decent work & I want to be able to actually afford to live in the city I live in. I got a lot of "I miss yous" and "You should come back"s this weekend and I thought about it...what is holding me here?
Nothing. I wouldnt be giving up if I went back to Bellingham. I think I could pretty easily find a good job at one of the (many) awesome salons and I know Western would take me back. I wouldnt lose any of my credits, I could find a job at a salon that I might actually LIKE working at, and I could finally feel safe & at home again.
Even crazier, my friends Tim & Debbie (who coincidentally live in the same building Rachelle & Carrie used to and Ryan & Amanda do live in) are trying to get out of their lease ASAP and need someone to sublet their awesome one bedroom. It's only $540 and about three times as big as my place.
Anyways, a lot of changes and thinking and planning and healing are ahead. I look forward to the journey.
So I made the decision that I want to go back to school and finish my degree. I had been thinking of going to Portland because it sounds like such a neat city. After talking with friends, my mom & my heart, I dont think that I would be happy moving away to another city alone. I want to finish school, I want to be able to find decent work & I want to be able to actually afford to live in the city I live in. I got a lot of "I miss yous" and "You should come back"s this weekend and I thought about it...what is holding me here?
Nothing. I wouldnt be giving up if I went back to Bellingham. I think I could pretty easily find a good job at one of the (many) awesome salons and I know Western would take me back. I wouldnt lose any of my credits, I could find a job at a salon that I might actually LIKE working at, and I could finally feel safe & at home again.
Even crazier, my friends Tim & Debbie (who coincidentally live in the same building Rachelle & Carrie used to and Ryan & Amanda do live in) are trying to get out of their lease ASAP and need someone to sublet their awesome one bedroom. It's only $540 and about three times as big as my place.
Anyways, a lot of changes and thinking and planning and healing are ahead. I look forward to the journey.