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Wow, I never have time to go online anymore. Between work, church, and Tim, my time is pretty much occupied. I have to work just about every day this week, but I guess it's ok because I need to money. I have to go to the doctor to find out what's wrong with me, because I get really hot but I sweat, and then I get dizzy and pale, and I've come close to passing out. I think it's probably just from lack of sleep.
Anything new? Let's see...I went to Aquire The Fire Saturday, it was pretty good, except for when you sat in the staduim you had absolutely no leg room. On the way home we say a bunch of Hookers, just incase you wanted to know. Then at work yesterday we made a 16 inch cookie. And I found out that inside our freezers it is 9 degrees. It's cold as shit. Um, Kerry tried to boss me around again but I finally told her off and she left me alone. Oh, I was talking to her about something and Michael Jackson popped up and Kerry was saying how awesome he was and I told her that he was a child molester, and she said that he could molest all the children he wanted because he was saving lives by donated money to the AIDs Foundation. That really pissed me off. I asked her if she had ever been molested and she said "No, but guess what? I don't give a shit!" I told her to go talk to some kids that have been molested and let them take care of her. I wanted to hit her so bad for that remark that she made. It really set something off inside of me. Stupid bitch. My manger said that Kerry probably wouldn't be there that much longer. Good! Then Jarrett and Lydia came over to buy some donuts and Jarrett was bitching about how there weren't any with custard inside. So he finally picked his donuts, and he said that he wanted one in a box and one in a bag. He's such a dork, but he did make me laugh. He also wanted 10 free cookies. Haha.
After work we took Tim home, all the way out in BFE (bum fuck egypt). His room is so awesome, you don't even know. I took a pair of his shoes and one of his hats and I gave him some of my clothes. This weekend me, my Mom, and Tim are gonna go shopping. Anyway, right before I left he handed me a piece of paper, and he told me that he wrote it a year ago after we broke up. It was a poem...here it is...
I'm in love
With she who
Could lie, cheat,
And steal my heart away
Who thinks love
Is just a play
Of words
Playing games with
My mind
Stealing me blind
Of my feelings
I just want to
Unfold and fly away,
Fly away
From the pain that is
Beneath me
The weight of the world
On my shoulders
Drowning in a sea
Of pain
I cannot see beyond the plain
Stolen from me in my innocence
I've never felt the same
Since
Cannot hide
Wanna die
So I'll know
The spell
That putrid smell,
The putrid smell of love
She surrounded my world
Put it on a twirl
She is the star
Of my Heaven
But I'm behind
The illusion,
Without sanity,
My world of delusions
Thinking thoughts of shame
I'm the only one to blame
I wanted too much
To the point of such
I would've sold my soul
For you to control
My way of thinking.
-Tim Muncie
I almost cried. I have never felt this way before, about ANYONE in my life. My heart belongs to him, and him only.
Last night we were talking to eachother on the phone, and we kept the phone on as we slept. It was so good to hear his voice first in the morning. I would die to wake up next to him everyday.
Tim- I love you baby, with all my heart. You mean the world to me, and I promise, I will never let you go.