(no subject)
I work hard
that's really all I've got.
And for what? Because I can.
Tonight for a while I really thought the worst.
I am so in love with everyone I love.
My Mother, my Family, my Father.
I am also in love and need to learn Creole in order to woo a man.
But, you know.
I feel so out the outside of everything I love and know and want to be.
It's terrible, really. How did I get so far removed from what is so alive and dying, starving in my heart.
I do not get it.
I don't know how to get to what I want, what I need.
In the mean time (until what? What will happen? Will it?)
I will just work, and wish.
Good night, good nights.
that's really all I've got.
And for what? Because I can.
Tonight for a while I really thought the worst.
I am so in love with everyone I love.
My Mother, my Family, my Father.
I am also in love and need to learn Creole in order to woo a man.
But, you know.
I feel so out the outside of everything I love and know and want to be.
It's terrible, really. How did I get so far removed from what is so alive and dying, starving in my heart.
I do not get it.
I don't know how to get to what I want, what I need.
In the mean time (until what? What will happen? Will it?)
I will just work, and wish.
Good night, good nights.