as of late
Lately my life has been very flippy from good times to bad. When something good occurs it is leveled out with something bad. Lets start off with every monday something bad happens. I have been working for 2 months... the money is good but i have no life after work. Everyday its run sleep work repeat. No one calls or if they do its after 11 to hang out. It's depressing besides two ppl that call to hang out chris and varley. Unfortunately plans always seem to fall through so lately my only escape from this has been my cottage where i have met some really nice guys.
Let's start from the beginning
good thing: Broke up with jd in my sleep wrote on my arm "Broke up with jd, 2:46, - asshole... i thought that was hilarious
Bad thing: Following day put Teaspoon down... Its been a month and i still feel sick when i remember the feeling of her body going limp, her crying stopping, the struggle to break free quitting and the last breathe leave her lungs.
Good thing put the braids in my hair again... followed by dates with a couple new males
Bad:On my parents 25th anniversary my grandfather fell down the stairs and broke his neck.... at least he is recovering
Good thing/: At the cottage met Cliff, Drew, Andrew and Craig..... (Cliff is the new goal)
Bad thing: Brother got in a car accident and same night a cousin died from cancer
Good thing: Saw Zack a friend from long ago
Bad thing: needed more blood tests
Good thing: discovered shawn is working at purdue as well so i have another person to take break with when my usual crowd decides that they "need" to work through break
Bad Thing: discovered a good friend who is 21 has cancer
good thing: saw Cliff Craig and andrew
Bad Thing: Discovered Cliff lied and i'm trying to forgive him
The worst part of this summer is i know i'm not alone but it feels that way due to the lack of communication between me and my friends. I miss Tes, Shack, Mandi and Jen most of all. It seems like i'm losing them and I can't help it. Everytime they are busy or plans have fallen through or they are at school still .... jen. I just gave up on trying so i'll live my life in solitude for now until i can actually see them. And fuck I still have to get my shit back from JD cause he is convienently gone whenever i demand it back.
I just want it to be the weekend so i can escape back to the cottage since it feels like the only safe place where i have a reason to be alone or where ppl that enjoy my company will drive to see me... at least it makes it feel as though there is a reason i'm not seeing my close friends.
Let's start from the beginning
good thing: Broke up with jd in my sleep wrote on my arm "Broke up with jd, 2:46, - asshole... i thought that was hilarious
Bad thing: Following day put Teaspoon down... Its been a month and i still feel sick when i remember the feeling of her body going limp, her crying stopping, the struggle to break free quitting and the last breathe leave her lungs.
Good thing put the braids in my hair again... followed by dates with a couple new males
Bad:On my parents 25th anniversary my grandfather fell down the stairs and broke his neck.... at least he is recovering
Good thing/: At the cottage met Cliff, Drew, Andrew and Craig..... (Cliff is the new goal)
Bad thing: Brother got in a car accident and same night a cousin died from cancer
Good thing: Saw Zack a friend from long ago
Bad thing: needed more blood tests
Good thing: discovered shawn is working at purdue as well so i have another person to take break with when my usual crowd decides that they "need" to work through break
Bad Thing: discovered a good friend who is 21 has cancer
good thing: saw Cliff Craig and andrew
Bad Thing: Discovered Cliff lied and i'm trying to forgive him
The worst part of this summer is i know i'm not alone but it feels that way due to the lack of communication between me and my friends. I miss Tes, Shack, Mandi and Jen most of all. It seems like i'm losing them and I can't help it. Everytime they are busy or plans have fallen through or they are at school still .... jen. I just gave up on trying so i'll live my life in solitude for now until i can actually see them. And fuck I still have to get my shit back from JD cause he is convienently gone whenever i demand it back.
I just want it to be the weekend so i can escape back to the cottage since it feels like the only safe place where i have a reason to be alone or where ppl that enjoy my company will drive to see me... at least it makes it feel as though there is a reason i'm not seeing my close friends.