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Well the weekend was good but unfortunately to short,
Friday i got coffee with some friends and picked up JD after work and hung out for the night. Next day he went to Guelph. I ended up staying in sat night until i was removed from my house by a couple friends i hadn't seen in a long time. Sunday i went for more coffee.... and then I got to see JD again. Hmmm i'm seeing a pattern coffee.... then JD...then coffee follwed by JD......hmmm i wonder if that would work back here in waterloo.
Yesterday Chris asked me a question that i've been thinking about quite alot, it was "what motivates you to do what you do?" and after much thought I am still unable to answer it... i like to believe it is my ow motivations, but then again what causes those.... it's rather mind boggling.
Is it possible to fall in love twice...? or is it that the first time wasn't really love...? Another feeling is how do u know something is love... it can't be defined which bugs me...
I think what scares me the most is that i believe i'm falling for him.... and what makes me almost positive is that i did the basic Courtney thing to do.... broke up with him (however i had reasons, not to do with him) and ran... however I got back together with him because it was to hard to think that i wouldn't be able to hold him again..... It's weird i'm not the type of person that falls hard for an individual, but unforunately i think i just might be.... what even makes it worse is that i know for a fact that i am going to get hurt.... and yet i believe its already to late tp protect myself from that hurt that is sneaking up on me.
Friday i got coffee with some friends and picked up JD after work and hung out for the night. Next day he went to Guelph. I ended up staying in sat night until i was removed from my house by a couple friends i hadn't seen in a long time. Sunday i went for more coffee.... and then I got to see JD again. Hmmm i'm seeing a pattern coffee.... then JD...then coffee follwed by JD......hmmm i wonder if that would work back here in waterloo.
Yesterday Chris asked me a question that i've been thinking about quite alot, it was "what motivates you to do what you do?" and after much thought I am still unable to answer it... i like to believe it is my ow motivations, but then again what causes those.... it's rather mind boggling.
Is it possible to fall in love twice...? or is it that the first time wasn't really love...? Another feeling is how do u know something is love... it can't be defined which bugs me...
I think what scares me the most is that i believe i'm falling for him.... and what makes me almost positive is that i did the basic Courtney thing to do.... broke up with him (however i had reasons, not to do with him) and ran... however I got back together with him because it was to hard to think that i wouldn't be able to hold him again..... It's weird i'm not the type of person that falls hard for an individual, but unforunately i think i just might be.... what even makes it worse is that i know for a fact that i am going to get hurt.... and yet i believe its already to late tp protect myself from that hurt that is sneaking up on me.