life as told by nick
I have been neglecting my life and everyone in it and I need to change that
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(update for the last month)
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WE had broken up which I might of mentioned and we ended up getting back together after a week. After a while we decided to take a "break" and it wasn't a good idea but at that moment it was the best. I have been neglecting my life and at that moment my relationship with her. That same day I had heard that she liked this other guy and I felt like shit. I pretty much didn't talk to her for a while except some times when she was online but it was pretty much nothing and only because she im'd me. I wasn't going to school, I wasn't calling her, and I was pretty much off in my own little world not caring about anyone but myself. Look at me the wonderful person who has a great habit of running away from the smallest problems.
Well, last week she asked me what had been going on? Why I wasn't showing any effort? and that I shouldn't make her think that I still wanted something to happen and just forget about her. She told me it seemed like I had no more interest in her and well I kinda did but didn't, I was confused as usual. I found out that it wasn't true about the fact that she liked him or so she says. The next day she gave me a letter, to me it was important and I think it might have been to her as well but, once again I neglected it. I tried to write a letter back to her but I had such a hard time and it bothered me that whole day. On wednesday that week I was a complete asshole and called her a bitch and I was mean to a few people and then I just felt bad and was pretty sad the whole day. I didn't go to school on thursday or friday..........or monday or tuesday this week.
EXTRA EXTRA READ ALL ABOUT IT NICK'S BEEN GOING OVER TO LACIE'S HOUSE A LOT AND THEY MIGHT HAVE DONE SOMETHING
I found out tuesday night that lacie had been telling people I had been going over to her house a lot. The truth is I went over there once last tuesday with kam because his g/f was over there and wednesday after kam decided to go home and I didn't feel like walking all the way to his house to call my mom for a ride home so I walked to lacie's to use her phone to get a ride and when I got a hold of my mom walked to the graveyard and waited there.
Tuesday night me and Casey talked and I apologized for being so selfish and not trying to communicate with her. I called her and we talked some more and I promised her i'd be at school on time. That night Malina called from Wyoming and we talked for half an hour. Malina is coming back this sunday and it'll be nice to see her.
Wednesday morning I came to school early and the only person I knew there was Jen so I hung out with her and 5 minutes later I see Casey walking up and then all three of us went and sat in building 4 for warmth. As I sat there looking at Casey I felt good I didn't know what to really say to her but I missed her. We wrote each other a few letters that day and it was nice. I really hope me and her can hang out some over winter break. After school I went to Keith and Eric's house and hung out and didn't get home to 11:30. When I got home I noticed that malina called and I did ask her to call me after school so I feel bad about that and Casey called. I feel bad about missing Malina's call seeing as I asked her to call me back but, I wish I hadn't missed Casey's call.
Today, Thursday, I didn't go to school and regret it so much. I tried calling Casey tonight but she wasn't home, I guess she was at her uncle's house and I forgot that number. Know that I think about it I should have called Malina.
Tomorrow, Friday, I plan on going to school. It is the last day before winter break and I should take advantage of it.
To end it all I realized that i have a hard time with communication and that's something i need to get better with because it is important in life.
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(update for the last month)
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WE had broken up which I might of mentioned and we ended up getting back together after a week. After a while we decided to take a "break" and it wasn't a good idea but at that moment it was the best. I have been neglecting my life and at that moment my relationship with her. That same day I had heard that she liked this other guy and I felt like shit. I pretty much didn't talk to her for a while except some times when she was online but it was pretty much nothing and only because she im'd me. I wasn't going to school, I wasn't calling her, and I was pretty much off in my own little world not caring about anyone but myself. Look at me the wonderful person who has a great habit of running away from the smallest problems.
Well, last week she asked me what had been going on? Why I wasn't showing any effort? and that I shouldn't make her think that I still wanted something to happen and just forget about her. She told me it seemed like I had no more interest in her and well I kinda did but didn't, I was confused as usual. I found out that it wasn't true about the fact that she liked him or so she says. The next day she gave me a letter, to me it was important and I think it might have been to her as well but, once again I neglected it. I tried to write a letter back to her but I had such a hard time and it bothered me that whole day. On wednesday that week I was a complete asshole and called her a bitch and I was mean to a few people and then I just felt bad and was pretty sad the whole day. I didn't go to school on thursday or friday..........or monday or tuesday this week.
EXTRA EXTRA READ ALL ABOUT IT NICK'S BEEN GOING OVER TO LACIE'S HOUSE A LOT AND THEY MIGHT HAVE DONE SOMETHING
I found out tuesday night that lacie had been telling people I had been going over to her house a lot. The truth is I went over there once last tuesday with kam because his g/f was over there and wednesday after kam decided to go home and I didn't feel like walking all the way to his house to call my mom for a ride home so I walked to lacie's to use her phone to get a ride and when I got a hold of my mom walked to the graveyard and waited there.
Tuesday night me and Casey talked and I apologized for being so selfish and not trying to communicate with her. I called her and we talked some more and I promised her i'd be at school on time. That night Malina called from Wyoming and we talked for half an hour. Malina is coming back this sunday and it'll be nice to see her.
Wednesday morning I came to school early and the only person I knew there was Jen so I hung out with her and 5 minutes later I see Casey walking up and then all three of us went and sat in building 4 for warmth. As I sat there looking at Casey I felt good I didn't know what to really say to her but I missed her. We wrote each other a few letters that day and it was nice. I really hope me and her can hang out some over winter break. After school I went to Keith and Eric's house and hung out and didn't get home to 11:30. When I got home I noticed that malina called and I did ask her to call me after school so I feel bad about that and Casey called. I feel bad about missing Malina's call seeing as I asked her to call me back but, I wish I hadn't missed Casey's call.
Today, Thursday, I didn't go to school and regret it so much. I tried calling Casey tonight but she wasn't home, I guess she was at her uncle's house and I forgot that number. Know that I think about it I should have called Malina.
Tomorrow, Friday, I plan on going to school. It is the last day before winter break and I should take advantage of it.
To end it all I realized that i have a hard time with communication and that's something i need to get better with because it is important in life.