ohdearlawd

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SO hey hello how are you?

That was rhetorical, for the moment. Bear with me.

Long story short: I am a graduate and I'm tryin' to figure out what to do now. Have a job, but it's not the one I want. Have a girlfriend, but she goes to school far away and lives even farther. Have a wonderful family, no buts there. Definitely butts, but no buts. They are the best.

I am thinking what I want out of this is to keep myself on track. In what way? All of them. I am the kind of person who becomes complacent easily. I could happily spend weeks on end cooped up in my house watching dvd's and sitting on the couch with my mother. BUT. As I have come to figure out, that may not be the healthiest or most beneficial approach to life-after-college. So.

Financially, I am in okayish shape. Do not get me wrong, I could be much, much better. I could also be much worse. I do not pay for rent or utilities or food (generally speaking). I do pay for a car, car insurance, gas, health insurance, cell phone, and school loans (and, because my mother is AMAZING, I am only paying for part of those loans). I have a bit of a cushion (which took a hit for Christmas but is coming back round) in the bank and I opened a Roth IRA. So. Goals?

• Contribute monthly to the Roth IRA.
• Continue to build cushion.
• Open a separate savings account specifically for the next big step in m'life: movin' out.
• Get. A better. Job.

My job situation is similar to my financial situation; could be better, could be worse. I have a steady, but unfulfilling, job. I want to work in film, ideally. Right now I work in a call center. I'm just a contractor, so I have no benefits to speak of. I know I should be thankful I even have a job, but I am absolutely looking for other employment. And I know, 'in film' is way too undefined to be a goal. But honestly, I would do anything on a set. I would do pre or post production, or production. I would Foley, I would cast, I would hold a boom mic. I just want to be involved somehow in filmmaking. And, if that's not available, at I'd like to be involved in something to do with media. I would tweet for a company, I would DJ a radio station. I think what I really want is to be inspired and challenged creatively. I mean, I have been seriously considering taking up balloon art - you know, for children's birthday parties? This should give you some idea of my mental position in regards to a job at the moment. So. Goals?

• Find a better paying job.
• Find a job with better benefits.
• Find a job in a field that interests me.

I am, generally speaking, a healthy individual. I recently went to the ER with stomach pains and was diagnosed with the stomach flu. Before that, the last time I was in the hospital was when I was two for stitches - I tripped while running around in a KMart with my hands in my pockets. I have no real medical issues to speak of, other than the fact that I am overweight. Well, to be frank, I am obese. I have a BMI of 38. So, much like the rest of my life, my health could be better and could be worse. I don't mind exercise, I just have trouble bringing myself to do it unless I'm on a kick. When it comes to food, I think I might be addicted. I eat when I'm not hungry, I don't stop eating when I'm full. I love sweets. It's pretty much bad news bears. BUT! I have successfully lost weight in the past, and maintained it. I know I can do it, it's just something that I have to work at constantly. It's mostly a mental battle for me. So. Goals?

• Exercise a little bit everyday.
• Only eat when hungry (this is the MOST DIFFICULT part, especially when you dine with others).
• Eat slowly until full.
• Cut out extraneous food/sweets.

My social life is pretty laughable. I have a couple of close friends, a girlfriend, and a very tight-knit family. My parents are divorced; I live with my mom and my dad lives a half-hour away with his girlfriend and her son. I have an older sister, who is married, who lives an hour away. My mom and I are together the most out of anyone; my little sister goes to college and is home for breaks. I see my older sister and her husband and my dad/his girlfriend/her son/my little sister on Tuesdays when we go to my dad's for dinner. I see my oldest friend Wednesday nights for television watching and general nerding out. My girlfriend (currently in an airplane flying from Tel Aviv to Philadelphia) is usually at school, so I make the two-and-a-half hour drive every other week or so to see her, and sometimes she comes to visit me. Other than those things, most of my non-work time is spent at home, with my mom, on the couch. Because I am antisocial. So. Goals?

• Try to be more social. Go out to movies on weekends. Go to bars. Take classes. Get out more, essentially.
• Plan more for eventual move with girlfriend. We want to live in a city and she wants to work in film as well. I anticipate rocky, though worthwhile, roads ahead.
• Attempt to branch out and make more friends. This is gonna be difficult, seeing as the biggest social environment I have is work, but it is feasible.

Okay, this is getting excessive and is probably uninteresting to anyone other than me. Hey, wait, it is actually pretty boring to me as well. I guess I just needed to get it all out someplace.

Unrhetorical: hey, hello, how are you? Any advice? Anything on yer mind? Go on, comment and spill.