Losing..
I think I'm going to lose him...
To Samantha no less. The girl he tried to tell me was not attractive that he used to work with. The girl that so very painfully obviously liked him.
He called her, after he moved out. In a way I blame myself because when we talked, I said "I'm afraid you're going to leave me and try to be with Samantha" Sure enough... He called her :'(
Then she called him back the other day and they talked for a little bit.
How do I know all this? Well... 3 years ago we broke up and he went to be with Erin. The last time we were together before we broke up I checked his phone, and they had been talking. It was like he had been anticipating breaking up so was getting Erin's attention. It's like he's doing the same thing with Samantha.
God I'm so scared. I can't lose him again. I mean, I could be jumping to conclusions, but jesus christ this is so scary similar.
He's been coming over everyday, so that makes me feel good. We went and saw a movie last night and he came back here and he's now sleeping in the bedroom. He has to be up in an hour for work.
It's funny... I do, but I don't, want to let him know what I'm thinking. I could write this in my myspace blog, put it on public, and he'd see it because he's subscribed to it, but I don't want to make it like I'm looking for attention. I don't even know the last time he read my livejournal.
He read my very very very long letter I wrote to him with my mass of feelings for him in it, but wasn't able to respond to it other than say "It was very sweet".
Please please please please don't let him leave me for Samantha. Or anyone for that matter. My heart already hurts, I don't need it to be smashed into pieces too.
To Samantha no less. The girl he tried to tell me was not attractive that he used to work with. The girl that so very painfully obviously liked him.
He called her, after he moved out. In a way I blame myself because when we talked, I said "I'm afraid you're going to leave me and try to be with Samantha" Sure enough... He called her :'(
Then she called him back the other day and they talked for a little bit.
How do I know all this? Well... 3 years ago we broke up and he went to be with Erin. The last time we were together before we broke up I checked his phone, and they had been talking. It was like he had been anticipating breaking up so was getting Erin's attention. It's like he's doing the same thing with Samantha.
God I'm so scared. I can't lose him again. I mean, I could be jumping to conclusions, but jesus christ this is so scary similar.
He's been coming over everyday, so that makes me feel good. We went and saw a movie last night and he came back here and he's now sleeping in the bedroom. He has to be up in an hour for work.
It's funny... I do, but I don't, want to let him know what I'm thinking. I could write this in my myspace blog, put it on public, and he'd see it because he's subscribed to it, but I don't want to make it like I'm looking for attention. I don't even know the last time he read my livejournal.
He read my very very very long letter I wrote to him with my mass of feelings for him in it, but wasn't able to respond to it other than say "It was very sweet".
Please please please please don't let him leave me for Samantha. Or anyone for that matter. My heart already hurts, I don't need it to be smashed into pieces too.