Yesterday was probably the last day under a Labour government for five years. There are wide and dark stains on their stewardship of Britain. Nevertheless, they have improved the lives of millions of people in their 13 years in power. They're moribund, corrupt and authoritarian now, and I wouldn't be voting for them... except ... EXCEPT, I cannot stand to think of the Tories in power.
My local MP is a useless seatwarmer who claimed £21,000 in second home allowance even though we are 16 miles from Westminster. I work somewhere where I read about politics all the time and I have never read her name in any news report, ever. She votes supinely, and with the government on every single initiative that I disagree with, such as anti-terror legislation, and has done sweet FA in her five years in parliament as far as I can see. I want to vote in some way that would force electoral reform, but if I let in a Tory I would find it hard to forgive myself.
Someone posted earlier about the poll that found that 40% of Britons are still undecided and how could they be so feeble-minded as to have not made their minds up? Well this is how: my MP is USELESS but if the Respect vote here collapses, the fucking Tories were third. What if they're the ones with the turnout this year? Do I vote for reform or do I vote anti-Dave? Reform is Lib Dem, anti-Dave is for Mrs Bloody Useless.
If pro-reform and anti-Dave are the same vote for you, count yourself lucky.
I was almost ready to accept Cameron as prime minister as bad but not terrible -- maybe even a necessary evil -- until his speech to the Conservative party conference last year. The rampant, over-privileged anti-state rhetoric, the idea that volunteerism can replace professional care for the vulnerable, the notion that the richest people in the country need more tax cuts and will somehow allow their wealth to "trickle down" is just horseshit.
After that, the fact that he's got into bed with a bunch of hedge fund managers who want legislative concessions and with a bunch of antisemites and homophobes in Europe is just the crusty, sour milk topping on that particular cake of manky rat turds.
I am really, really upset at the thought of a Conservative majority tomorrow. I'm surprised at how upset. I hated them (and I mean loathed viscerally, not merely disliked) when I was growing up in the 80s, and not without reason. I'm from the North, and they ripped the civic fabric of every urban area north of the Humber into shreds and said it didn't matter, that it was good for us. They flaunted their wealth and implied that it was some sort of moral failing to be poor, unhealthy or unlucky. They attempted to dismantle everything that didn't make a profit and I dread to think what they will do to the BBC and the NHS with the excuse of the deficit crisis to hide behind.
They tell us they've changed. I don't believe it. I just don't believe it. I think that as soon as they get their hands on power, the old Tories will crawl out of the woodwork. And it might be a remnant of the furious teenager in me, but I hate them still.
I am working 4pm to 3am tomorrow and it's going to be a grim, old night. On the plus side, I know that everyone I work with is going to be equally horror-struck if the polls are right and Diamond Dave is heading to Downing Street with a workable majority.