Re: [fill] i've got nothing to do today, but smile (8/10)
anonymous
April 25 2014, 10:35:15 UTC
vi. Woohyun
Woohyun makes enough excuses that by the time he has to work with Dongwoo again, Dongwoo’s made a full round of the rest of their group, and-as far as Woohyun knows-slept with everyone. Even Sunggyu, the loser. Woohyun just knew he wouldn’t last long against Dongwoo.
So now it’s just him left.
It’s hard even looking at Dongwoo now. It’s weird, because Woohyun isn’t at all scared of Kibum. It’s probably because he’s so used to him, and he knows (is pretty sure, anyway) that Kibum won’t kill him as long as he doesn’t mortally offend him. But Dongwoo is uncharted territory, in that sense. Woohyun knows, theoretically, that Dongwoo probably won’t hurt him-he’d be long dead if Dongwoo wanted that. He’s gone over that a thousand and one times by now. But it doesn’t stop him from being uneasy around Dongwoo.
Woohyun loves him. He really does. Dongwoo is an amazing person (demon?). He’s always been there when Woohyun needs a shoulder to lean on or a willing ear to hear him out. But it’s not the same anymore. Woohyun knows, obviously, that not all demons are bad. Or not all bad, because he’s pretty sure Kibum does plenty of unspeakable things-Woohyun just doesn’t know or want to know about them.
That’s what scares him about Dongwoo, really. That he’s sweet and kind, but if Woohyun turns his back, he might act just like any other demon he’s hunted and he’d be none the wiser. That Woohyun and the others are only around because he likes them, so he doesn’t kill them (like how Kibum treats him). He’s already friends with a demon who doesn’t really hide that fact-which makes it more acceptable, somehow-but he’s now also friends with a demon who’s pretending not to be, and it’s terrifying.
Dongwoo’s worried about him. He keeps feeling his forehead and asking him if he’s feeling sick, or needs a rest, or if Dongwoo should take over his watch. Woohyun feels terrible, because Dongwoo’s his friend and he’s thinking awful thoughts about him practically all the time, but Dongwoo’s still concerned about him. It makes it so much worse.
“I’m really okay, hyung,” he repeats for the millionth time, and Dongwoo just looks even more worried.
Woohyun never actually thought he’d end up borrowing one of Sungyeol’s methods. Even the situation fits it to a T. But obviously, he’s desperate enough that just about anything except talking about his concerns is better-so he just goes for it and grabs Dongwoo, kissing him with all the force and pent-up frustration of tiptoeing around him for the past week (and all the months before that after he found everything out).
It’s good (nobody was kidding, ever, when they talked about Dongwoo’s bedroom skills), but Woohyun’s still distracted. And it’s only when he feels Dongwoo brushing his tears away and whispering soft reassurances that he realises just how much everything’s been bothering him. And it’s embarrassing, fuck it all, but he ends up clinging to Dongwoo long after they’re done and he’s out of an excuse.
“What’s bothering you?” Dongwoo asks softly, and Woohyun just shakes his head. Nothing I can tell you.
“I won’t tell anyone. I promise.” Dongwoo sounds so sincere that Woohyun has to blink away tears again. He’s not helping. He’s being everything a demon shouldn’t be when he’s a demon and that just makes Woohyun even more scared. That demon nature has to go somewhere.
Dongwoo kisses him again, long and slow and sweet, and Woohyun kisses back desperately. Anything that’s not talking. But Dongwoo pulls away again, and adds, “Is it about Sunggyu-hyung? Did you have a fight or something?”
Woohyun shakes his head again. Dongwoo sighs, frowning. “Sungyeol, then?”
“It’s not anyone, Dongwoo. It’s nothing.” His voice is hoarse and a little choked up when he says the words. He’s not fooling anyone, he knows.
“But it’s bothering you, Woohyun! That’s not nothing.” Dongwoo strokes his hair lightly, staring at him in that imploring way, and Woohyun feels like breaking down. “Just tell me. Please? I really, really won’t tell anyone.”
Woohyun opens his mouth to lie again-pretend he’s fine and everything’s okay-when he blurts out, “You’re a demon.”
Woohyun makes enough excuses that by the time he has to work with Dongwoo again, Dongwoo’s made a full round of the rest of their group, and-as far as Woohyun knows-slept with everyone. Even Sunggyu, the loser. Woohyun just knew he wouldn’t last long against Dongwoo.
So now it’s just him left.
It’s hard even looking at Dongwoo now. It’s weird, because Woohyun isn’t at all scared of Kibum. It’s probably because he’s so used to him, and he knows (is pretty sure, anyway) that Kibum won’t kill him as long as he doesn’t mortally offend him. But Dongwoo is uncharted territory, in that sense. Woohyun knows, theoretically, that Dongwoo probably won’t hurt him-he’d be long dead if Dongwoo wanted that. He’s gone over that a thousand and one times by now. But it doesn’t stop him from being uneasy around Dongwoo.
Woohyun loves him. He really does. Dongwoo is an amazing person (demon?). He’s always been there when Woohyun needs a shoulder to lean on or a willing ear to hear him out. But it’s not the same anymore. Woohyun knows, obviously, that not all demons are bad. Or not all bad, because he’s pretty sure Kibum does plenty of unspeakable things-Woohyun just doesn’t know or want to know about them.
That’s what scares him about Dongwoo, really. That he’s sweet and kind, but if Woohyun turns his back, he might act just like any other demon he’s hunted and he’d be none the wiser. That Woohyun and the others are only around because he likes them, so he doesn’t kill them (like how Kibum treats him). He’s already friends with a demon who doesn’t really hide that fact-which makes it more acceptable, somehow-but he’s now also friends with a demon who’s pretending not to be, and it’s terrifying.
Dongwoo’s worried about him. He keeps feeling his forehead and asking him if he’s feeling sick, or needs a rest, or if Dongwoo should take over his watch. Woohyun feels terrible, because Dongwoo’s his friend and he’s thinking awful thoughts about him practically all the time, but Dongwoo’s still concerned about him. It makes it so much worse.
“I’m really okay, hyung,” he repeats for the millionth time, and Dongwoo just looks even more worried.
Woohyun never actually thought he’d end up borrowing one of Sungyeol’s methods. Even the situation fits it to a T. But obviously, he’s desperate enough that just about anything except talking about his concerns is better-so he just goes for it and grabs Dongwoo, kissing him with all the force and pent-up frustration of tiptoeing around him for the past week (and all the months before that after he found everything out).
It’s good (nobody was kidding, ever, when they talked about Dongwoo’s bedroom skills), but Woohyun’s still distracted. And it’s only when he feels Dongwoo brushing his tears away and whispering soft reassurances that he realises just how much everything’s been bothering him. And it’s embarrassing, fuck it all, but he ends up clinging to Dongwoo long after they’re done and he’s out of an excuse.
“What’s bothering you?” Dongwoo asks softly, and Woohyun just shakes his head. Nothing I can tell you.
“I won’t tell anyone. I promise.” Dongwoo sounds so sincere that Woohyun has to blink away tears again. He’s not helping. He’s being everything a demon shouldn’t be when he’s a demon and that just makes Woohyun even more scared. That demon nature has to go somewhere.
Dongwoo kisses him again, long and slow and sweet, and Woohyun kisses back desperately. Anything that’s not talking. But Dongwoo pulls away again, and adds, “Is it about Sunggyu-hyung? Did you have a fight or something?”
Woohyun shakes his head again. Dongwoo sighs, frowning. “Sungyeol, then?”
“It’s not anyone, Dongwoo. It’s nothing.” His voice is hoarse and a little choked up when he says the words. He’s not fooling anyone, he knows.
“But it’s bothering you, Woohyun! That’s not nothing.” Dongwoo strokes his hair lightly, staring at him in that imploring way, and Woohyun feels like breaking down. “Just tell me. Please? I really, really won’t tell anyone.”
Woohyun opens his mouth to lie again-pretend he’s fine and everything’s okay-when he blurts out, “You’re a demon.”
Oh, fuck.
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