[drabble] forevermore, 1/1
forevermore (you’ve got to help me)
ot15 | friendship | pg
this is his entire world, and he never intended it to be.
Heechul waves at the large number of fans. Today is cold-there is snow on the ground from last night, and everyone is bundled up in jackets and scarves and mittens. Somehow, they always host outdoor events during the worst weather.
Super Junior hasn’t held a fanmeeting in a while, but this is a sspecial case. Next week, Heechul and Jungsu are going to enlist in the army-this is their official goodbye to ELFs. And Heechul doesn’t want to admit it, but he’s a little scared.
They sign autographs and talk about funny things, and sing some songs-songs from the beginning, songs that hold so many feelings and memories that they overflow from everyone’s eyes. Don’t Don, Me, Super Girl, Marry U, Sorry Sorry-and they even tried dancing to Miracle, but Heechul can’t seem to remember anything from that choreography other than Donghae squirming between Donghee’s legs. Heechul doesn’t cry-he doesn’t let himself cry. Super Junior is just temporarily gone, not permanently, and they will come back stronger than ever-he believes it.
(He has to. He can’t not, because there will be nothing to believe anymore.)
Two hours after the fanmeeting commences, all of the members step up one by one to say what Jungsu and Heechul mean to them. Heechul wants to tune it out, because he has never planned for this-having these people mean so much to him-and it hurts, somehow, to love them this much-
Jungsu steps up to make the final speech. “I know we’ve had our rough patches and we lost some precious friends along the way”-the crowd lets out a collective “aww”-“but we got this far, so we’re not going to stop now. With you guys-with ELF, I really believe that the entire world will be sapphire blue one day. We’ll come back-hold us to those words!” It’s stupid and cheesy but the faces that Heechul can see in the front row are shining with tears. People’s noses and ears are red from the cold, and their eyes red from crying. It’s so ugly, he thinks-this is all so messy and ugly.
(And he would never trade it for the world.)
Is he strong enough? Can he do this? Heechul gives himself a tough image, but right now, he feels anything but. He wants to know that this-this, seeing ELF, seeing sapphire blue, having faith, is enough for him to survive wars-to know that falling in love over and over again will remind him that there is a place to go home to.
This is his entire world, and he never intended it to be.
Once Jungsu says his last words, it’s quiet. The fans murmur instead of cheering, and all of the members glance at each other, unsure of what’s happening.
A phone rings. The ringtone echoes in the winter air, striking Heechul’s heart through and through-huh, this is real love story, from now ‘til on, I’m not gonna be shy, I’ma tell you how I feel-and he swallows hard.
Doo doo doo doo, yeah, doo doo doo doo, yeah…
The fans start moving and looking around, and one of them, at the very edge of the crowd, holds up a sign. Another one follows suit, and another and another, each sign saying nothing individually, but together, saying everything.
(Heechul didn’t want to cry, but he thinks he will make this an exception.)
Do you have a wish?
- because sapphire blue is one of my favorite sj songs and i get teary-eyed every time they perform it live
- i ship sj/elf more than anything else
- if the weather is ignored, hong kong is beautiful and perfect and i bought 4 copies of 5jib and also the ss2 dvd and now i am poor
- btw follow me on tumblr (shameless? that i am)
ot15 | friendship | pg
this is his entire world, and he never intended it to be.
Heechul waves at the large number of fans. Today is cold-there is snow on the ground from last night, and everyone is bundled up in jackets and scarves and mittens. Somehow, they always host outdoor events during the worst weather.
Super Junior hasn’t held a fanmeeting in a while, but this is a sspecial case. Next week, Heechul and Jungsu are going to enlist in the army-this is their official goodbye to ELFs. And Heechul doesn’t want to admit it, but he’s a little scared.
They sign autographs and talk about funny things, and sing some songs-songs from the beginning, songs that hold so many feelings and memories that they overflow from everyone’s eyes. Don’t Don, Me, Super Girl, Marry U, Sorry Sorry-and they even tried dancing to Miracle, but Heechul can’t seem to remember anything from that choreography other than Donghae squirming between Donghee’s legs. Heechul doesn’t cry-he doesn’t let himself cry. Super Junior is just temporarily gone, not permanently, and they will come back stronger than ever-he believes it.
(He has to. He can’t not, because there will be nothing to believe anymore.)
Two hours after the fanmeeting commences, all of the members step up one by one to say what Jungsu and Heechul mean to them. Heechul wants to tune it out, because he has never planned for this-having these people mean so much to him-and it hurts, somehow, to love them this much-
Jungsu steps up to make the final speech. “I know we’ve had our rough patches and we lost some precious friends along the way”-the crowd lets out a collective “aww”-“but we got this far, so we’re not going to stop now. With you guys-with ELF, I really believe that the entire world will be sapphire blue one day. We’ll come back-hold us to those words!” It’s stupid and cheesy but the faces that Heechul can see in the front row are shining with tears. People’s noses and ears are red from the cold, and their eyes red from crying. It’s so ugly, he thinks-this is all so messy and ugly.
(And he would never trade it for the world.)
Is he strong enough? Can he do this? Heechul gives himself a tough image, but right now, he feels anything but. He wants to know that this-this, seeing ELF, seeing sapphire blue, having faith, is enough for him to survive wars-to know that falling in love over and over again will remind him that there is a place to go home to.
This is his entire world, and he never intended it to be.
Once Jungsu says his last words, it’s quiet. The fans murmur instead of cheering, and all of the members glance at each other, unsure of what’s happening.
A phone rings. The ringtone echoes in the winter air, striking Heechul’s heart through and through-huh, this is real love story, from now ‘til on, I’m not gonna be shy, I’ma tell you how I feel-and he swallows hard.
Doo doo doo doo, yeah, doo doo doo doo, yeah…
The fans start moving and looking around, and one of them, at the very edge of the crowd, holds up a sign. Another one follows suit, and another and another, each sign saying nothing individually, but together, saying everything.
(Heechul didn’t want to cry, but he thinks he will make this an exception.)
Do you have a wish?
- because sapphire blue is one of my favorite sj songs and i get teary-eyed every time they perform it live
- i ship sj/elf more than anything else
- if the weather is ignored, hong kong is beautiful and perfect and i bought 4 copies of 5jib and also the ss2 dvd and now i am poor
- btw follow me on tumblr (shameless? that i am)