Random thoughts of my mind
I dont know.
Friday is homecomming, I want to go, but have no one to go with cause im a loser and have no friends.
I guess I am going to spend the night alone, I dont kno what is going on yet.
Satuday I am hopefully hanging out with Rose- yet again I dont know.
I really wish I didnt have to live at home...I want to be independent and out on my own and I wouldnt mind spending a few nights in the car that I dont have. Yea my parentals say I go to too many concerts- yea ok. It the only fucking thing I do and they just want to take it away from me. Whatever. And of course everyone in my family hates me and half the time when im around them i just wanna kill myself.
Christina made a song for me about my warped tour shirt, math class, getting kicked out of wendys, and how I love me pene.
Mi pene es grande y largo.
I want to go to the mall and take a picture with santa, but no one will prolly come with me.
No one ever wants to do anything I want to, and if they do somthing I want to I konw that they didnt want to and I feel bad. Ya know.
I want to go to the Thanksgiving football game....but I have no one to go with once again cause I have no friends.
I really am a loner....I can just sit there and not say anything and no one will talk to me, unless they want something. Its not that hard to just say Hi and talk and not need somthing or are concerned with yourself.
I need to hang out with Ally, I havent done that in so long and her family misses me lol
Homeboy, I came to party ur girl is looking at me.
I heard some people talking about the new 'e' pill.
Wanna kno what I hate....people who say 'I would never do that' and have good reason not to. Then they do it anyway and think its fucking all right. Well u wanna know what its not. Ur fucking stupid I dont know what you are trying to prove. I cant stand that. And on top of it, they had gotten mad at other people who did it, really really mad, then they just go do it. riiiiight!
I want to go to a graveyard.
I wish I was back in 8th grade. It was the best.
I want to get a car and go out on the highway and just go as fast as I can.
I still remember being in kindergarden. One day it was raining, not just rain, it was thunder and lightning. The sky looked so dark and they day seemed so young. Like it was 12 at night and we were in school.
4th grade was just the shit. We had a new teacher. She was such a liberal teacher. We usta get a scoop of popcorn each day we were good. Then when we filled it up, we would get a popcorn party. The we also a rug in the middle of the floor that we could sit on to take notes and stuff. We made bonnets and aporens that looked like they we from little house on the Prarrie. We paper mached (SP?) the plantes of the solar system and we going to hang them form the ceiling, but they were too heavy so we made fish instead. We also collected the points on the back of the chip bags and all got yaka backs. I also remeber the first day of school. The teacher had heard that I was really tall, so when I walked in and found my seat it was hudge. She had gotten me mixed up with another girl. It was also and awsome year on the bus. Onykia ((i really dont kno how to spell her name so I took a guess)) was on the bus, we were like such good friends. I remeber all of the crazy shizzy we usta do- sandwiches, babbies, 5-0.
uhhhhh I dont understand what it is about me. I dont see it. I dont know I dont know I dont know.
What are the Pros and Cons of breathing: Breathing- you are alive, but u have to suffer and put up with bull shit. Not Breathing- you have no more stupid bull shit to put up with, but u r dead. I dont kno.
If you havent gotten it yet I dont fucking know. I dont understand, I am confuzzled. Everything is just so0o fucked up in my mind. Sometimes I wonder if I just see things the way I want to, or are my views logical.
I wonder if I am a good person. Do people actually like me? I think I am nice, but some people think that I am mean. I dont think I am at all, I am very sarcastic and joke around A LOT and I guess I am witty. Thinking about this...... if anyone bothers to ready my journal comment and tell me what you really think, and please...if u hate me let me kno and y, i dont care if u do u probably have a good reason so just tell me.
After all of this writing my mom nonsence I am feeling better and back to my chipper self. So I am going to leave you on this note: fuck you and have a nice day.
xoxo Sarah/betty
Friday is homecomming, I want to go, but have no one to go with cause im a loser and have no friends.
I guess I am going to spend the night alone, I dont kno what is going on yet.
Satuday I am hopefully hanging out with Rose- yet again I dont know.
I really wish I didnt have to live at home...I want to be independent and out on my own and I wouldnt mind spending a few nights in the car that I dont have. Yea my parentals say I go to too many concerts- yea ok. It the only fucking thing I do and they just want to take it away from me. Whatever. And of course everyone in my family hates me and half the time when im around them i just wanna kill myself.
Christina made a song for me about my warped tour shirt, math class, getting kicked out of wendys, and how I love me pene.
Mi pene es grande y largo.
I want to go to the mall and take a picture with santa, but no one will prolly come with me.
No one ever wants to do anything I want to, and if they do somthing I want to I konw that they didnt want to and I feel bad. Ya know.
I want to go to the Thanksgiving football game....but I have no one to go with once again cause I have no friends.
I really am a loner....I can just sit there and not say anything and no one will talk to me, unless they want something. Its not that hard to just say Hi and talk and not need somthing or are concerned with yourself.
I need to hang out with Ally, I havent done that in so long and her family misses me lol
Homeboy, I came to party ur girl is looking at me.
I heard some people talking about the new 'e' pill.
Wanna kno what I hate....people who say 'I would never do that' and have good reason not to. Then they do it anyway and think its fucking all right. Well u wanna know what its not. Ur fucking stupid I dont know what you are trying to prove. I cant stand that. And on top of it, they had gotten mad at other people who did it, really really mad, then they just go do it. riiiiight!
I want to go to a graveyard.
I wish I was back in 8th grade. It was the best.
I want to get a car and go out on the highway and just go as fast as I can.
I still remember being in kindergarden. One day it was raining, not just rain, it was thunder and lightning. The sky looked so dark and they day seemed so young. Like it was 12 at night and we were in school.
4th grade was just the shit. We had a new teacher. She was such a liberal teacher. We usta get a scoop of popcorn each day we were good. Then when we filled it up, we would get a popcorn party. The we also a rug in the middle of the floor that we could sit on to take notes and stuff. We made bonnets and aporens that looked like they we from little house on the Prarrie. We paper mached (SP?) the plantes of the solar system and we going to hang them form the ceiling, but they were too heavy so we made fish instead. We also collected the points on the back of the chip bags and all got yaka backs. I also remeber the first day of school. The teacher had heard that I was really tall, so when I walked in and found my seat it was hudge. She had gotten me mixed up with another girl. It was also and awsome year on the bus. Onykia ((i really dont kno how to spell her name so I took a guess)) was on the bus, we were like such good friends. I remeber all of the crazy shizzy we usta do- sandwiches, babbies, 5-0.
uhhhhh I dont understand what it is about me. I dont see it. I dont know I dont know I dont know.
What are the Pros and Cons of breathing: Breathing- you are alive, but u have to suffer and put up with bull shit. Not Breathing- you have no more stupid bull shit to put up with, but u r dead. I dont kno.
If you havent gotten it yet I dont fucking know. I dont understand, I am confuzzled. Everything is just so0o fucked up in my mind. Sometimes I wonder if I just see things the way I want to, or are my views logical.
I wonder if I am a good person. Do people actually like me? I think I am nice, but some people think that I am mean. I dont think I am at all, I am very sarcastic and joke around A LOT and I guess I am witty. Thinking about this...... if anyone bothers to ready my journal comment and tell me what you really think, and please...if u hate me let me kno and y, i dont care if u do u probably have a good reason so just tell me.
After all of this writing my mom nonsence I am feeling better and back to my chipper self. So I am going to leave you on this note: fuck you and have a nice day.
xoxo Sarah/betty