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Last night hung out with my roomie april and talked alot about so many different things. She is truly amazing and i feel so happy to know that i have her and annie in my life, i love them dearly.
So last night i watched this movie called iggy goes down...
Amazing!!!!
Its probably the most fucked up family setting i have ever seen in my life, i loved watching it, it actually made me feel good to like know that somebody else knew what it was like to have a family like so.
Things have been quite up and down for me lately..
I believe Brendon and i are together, but im really not so sure. He told me he wanted to be with me and call me his girlfriend when i was ready but i don't believe that i gave him a straight enough answer...and ever since that night he has been acting slightly distant...
Like for the begining he laughed at me alot...then it went to being like korny with each other some nights saying how we made each other feel...then i cried in front of him...and then he opened up to me...and began hugging me and kissing me in public...to then the other night asking me or telling me he wanted me to be his girlfriend...and i didn't really know what to say for some reason...im scared to be hurt again...love is a scary thing..and now he is acting alot more distant again.
Its almost like that beautiful time of getting to know one another and tell each other how you feel for eachother is missing and there is just like that honey moon period ended. Its like he is completely comfortable around me to just be silent and I dont know if thats okay with me. I want to be captivating ya know.
He says im extremely complicated hah...i know this.
I truly need to relax and stop analyzing things constantly but i dont know if i know how to do that.
So last night i watched this movie called iggy goes down...
Amazing!!!!
Its probably the most fucked up family setting i have ever seen in my life, i loved watching it, it actually made me feel good to like know that somebody else knew what it was like to have a family like so.
Things have been quite up and down for me lately..
I believe Brendon and i are together, but im really not so sure. He told me he wanted to be with me and call me his girlfriend when i was ready but i don't believe that i gave him a straight enough answer...and ever since that night he has been acting slightly distant...
Like for the begining he laughed at me alot...then it went to being like korny with each other some nights saying how we made each other feel...then i cried in front of him...and then he opened up to me...and began hugging me and kissing me in public...to then the other night asking me or telling me he wanted me to be his girlfriend...and i didn't really know what to say for some reason...im scared to be hurt again...love is a scary thing..and now he is acting alot more distant again.
Its almost like that beautiful time of getting to know one another and tell each other how you feel for eachother is missing and there is just like that honey moon period ended. Its like he is completely comfortable around me to just be silent and I dont know if thats okay with me. I want to be captivating ya know.
He says im extremely complicated hah...i know this.
I truly need to relax and stop analyzing things constantly but i dont know if i know how to do that.