Dark blue, dark blue... have you ever been alone in a crowded room?
it has been a while since I updated last- about 2 and a half weeks or so. quite a bit has happened, of course. so much I can't even begin to say. alot of things have been running through my mind and I hardly have time to think about it all. I guess I can start with the concert: it didn't go quite as planned. Stephanie ended up getting back together with her fiancee, leaving me feeling a little... jilted. so I stopped talking to her for a while and asked Ashley to go (I think I already mentioned some of this). in the end, Ashley had to work, and everyone else i asked who picked their phone up was either grounded or busy. I ended up taking my dad's lower ticket and he took my two tickets and brought my mom along. the concert was great, and once, one of the Blue Men almost came close enough to grab me and take me up on stage. the only thing that was missing, that would have made it from a great night, to the best night of my life, was someone to spend it with. I kind of wish I had just taken Stephanie, and I feel bad for acting like a jerk to her. also, none of the shirts there fit me. even the small is just a little to big for me.
over the four day weekend, I was hanging out with Sean and his girlfriend Danielle for a while. we played Dawn of War before his girlfriend came. when he came to my house, he had to leave for about 20 minutes- something with Danielle, involving her father and her cats. I'm particularly sympathetic to her because I know what it feels like to have someone just take for granted something you care about. Sean mentioned that he probably shouldn't have told me, so I was smart enough to keep my mouth shut. I really do feel bad for her, though. pets are alive too. you can't just throw them out like they're disposable or expendable and people need to realize that. one of the worst things ever is going to the pound to get a new pet. it's so sad... I've read that most animals who have to stay there don't usually live past their first 48 hours. I also read an article on Craigslist from someone who manages a pound in Souther California. it was titled "I Have The Worst Job In The World." I would have to agree with that.
after Dawn of War, we watch "Misery" which I took to be a very good movie. strange, though, and bizarre... oh so creepy. when Annie Wilkes decides to hobble what's his name, when I saw his foot fly to the right when the sledgehammer hit it, I jumped up and shouted "Holy Jesus Fucking Christ! Motherfucker! Fuck!!" and continued on like that for at least another 12 seconds.
on a slightly lighter note, I got a letter in the mail today from Isabella in Texas. I waited until she signed on AIM to open it, and... well, it made my day. it made my life. it's the best present I've ever gotten. what was it? it was simply a card with a holiday joke on the cover (which is worth a chuckle). inside, there was a card, a sticker thingy that seems to be for Valentines Day (it says "We were cut out for each other!" with Lisa Simpsons holding "I <3 You" in paper cutouts. I think it's really cute), and a picture of Isabella herself. Here's what the letter said:
To Jesse~
Yet Another Christmas and New Year have passed. Did you realize we have known each other for over 7 years? And I still don't know how to spell. XD
Well, I hope you had an amazing Christmas and New Year. Don't forget, someone in Texas Loves you!
Love,
Izzy
She's amazing. I love her so much! I have to admit, that when I read it, I almost started crying. it doesn't say anything particularly sad, but I miss her. I miss her alot. Isabella, even though you're 5000 or so miles away, you still care and you're still my best friend. I miss you... alot alot. I should consider myself fortunate to have a friend like you. I don't know what I would do without you.
it came at the perfect time too, cause I'm feeling kind of depressed right now. there's a couple other things I haven't mentioned yet that I'll cover in the next installment of my life.