(no subject)
Pairing : Tora X Saga, mentions of Shou X Pon and Nao X Kai
Author: infinite_high
Rating : R to be on the safe side
Genre: Romance
Summary : Saga has had enough but Tora still wants him back… this is a story of a love lost and was taken back. I suck at summarizing.
CHAPTER 1
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Saga’s POV
I could still here the loud bangs he was making to my wooden door,
His sobs and pleads of forgiveness could still be heard despite the tear-streaked pillow that was covering my face. Again, for the nth time this evening, I let out a frustrated cry that has been choking me, leaving me breathless. The muffled sound of my misery sounding foreign to my ears.
I still can’t believe that I let myself become his booty call, he’s fuck mate, his bitch, his WHORE.
I still can’t believe that I took part in his game.
I can’t believe he used me.
I heard the familiar sounds of his footsteps as he finally decided to leave. I lifted the pillow that was covering my face and took an awfully needed intake of air, I now lie in the middle of my living room, a very worried Chiko-san, every now and then nudging my legs with his head.
I sat up, ruffled Chiko’s fur and hugged my precious mutt. As I realized that my tears was flowing again I heard Chiko let out a moan and started licking my face. I hugged my pet even tighter causing it to twist around my arms trying to escape the death grip I was giving him. I let go and watched him walk away from me.I wiped the tears and the dog spit that was in my face and I once again glanced to the direction of the door, I saw a note that was probably slipped under the door before he decided to leave. I went to pick it up and read the messy hand writing marring the pure whiteness of the paper.
I’M SORRY.
-Tora-
I flipped the note and saw that it was a picture during Nao’s birthday party a year ago. I looked at myself and the man that was hugging me in the picture. I took my lighter, walked to the sink and set fire to the picture. I watched as the flames ate away the happy faces, thinking that along with it will the memories would too turn into ashes.
I’m such a fucking mess…
I looked to the direction of my room, and then regretted doing so as memories past through my mind like an old fashioned movie. I shook my head once again and headed to the comfort of my sofa. I let my battered body sink into the plush cushions and let my mind finally drift into the darkness that it craves.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
The number you dialed is either unattended or out of coverage area, please try your call later, Thank you.
“DAMMIT! He’s not answering!” Shou shouted , pacing around his living room. Once again, he dialed their bassist’s number only to be once again answered by the cursed recorded message. He looked down at his phone, the operator message could still be heard from it’s speaker, seriously considering throwing the damn phone off the balcony.
The feeling of a hand running down his arm snapped him from his musings. He looked to his left and saw his blonde little guitarist. Hiroto’s expression mirrored his.He knew that he too was worried for Saga. Shou snaked an arm around Hiroto’s petite shoulders and rested his head on the top of his lover’s blonde head..
He remembered Saga’s expression as he hastily left their office building,crying. It was the first time he saw Saga cry. It was a heartbreaking sight seeing Saga so rattled,so confused, so hurt, so BROKEN.
He was about to try and call their bassist again when they heard soft knocks on their apartment door.
“I’ll get it” Hiroto said , disengaging himself from their embrace, he walked to the door and opened it. He was shocked to see the man that was the source of all their problems and he knew that Shou wouldn’t be too happy to see the man too.
“Is Shou here?” Tora asked gloomily as if he was a bit dazed.
Hiroto could only nod.
“Can I come in? I really need to have a talk with the both of you…”
Hiroto could have sworn he saw that he saw tears threatening to fall from beneath Tora’s lashes. He let Tora in and promptly closed the door.
“Shou….” Hiroto called onto his lover.
With that, Shou turned and saw their raven haired guitarist. He tossed his phone onto the couch and walked up to Tora, he grabbed the giutarist’s collar and slammed his body against the wall. Hiroto gasped at his lover’s sudden outburst and tried to intervene with his bandmates. Shou easily pushed him away.
Shou planted 2 to 3 solid punches to Tora’s beautiful face. His last punch made Tora topple into their living room. Shou looked down at guitarist, straddled him and gave him a vicious shake.
“ Why did you have to do it?! WHY?! Have you even thought of what THIS would do to the band?! Huh?! Tell me?!” Shou shouted his face inches away from Tora’s. His tears already flowing down because of the depth of his emotions.
Tora just looked away and that earned him another whack across the face. His lips now bleeding from the force Shou’s punches. He didn’t dare fight back. He just lay there, letting his friend cry himself out. He knew he was at fault. He broke Saga’s heart. He promised that their relationship would not hurt anybody, he promised that it would not hurt the band. But right now, he wasn’t really sure. He messed it all up.He ruined the thing that was most special to him, because of what? OF LUST! That evil desire for the flesh.
He knew it was his insatiable lust that ruined him and Saga. He always thought women and men are all the same as long as a body can satisfy him, he didn’t care. All that changed when he fell for Saga, He knew that Saga was different. He knew it in himself that he loved that bassist, that he cared for the bassist. Plus, the bassist did satisfy him in more ways than one. GOD! He tried...God knows, he tried to stay away. Maybe he is some sort of a sex addict. He just couldn’t stay away for long. He longed for a woman’s body. He longed for the rush of sharing a night with some random fan that wanted to be loved even for just a moment. He longed for the rush of doing something forbidden and not get caught doing it. He knew his luck ran out when Saga finally saw him doing some girl in the office bathroom.
He closed his eyes at the memory of Saga’s face as he saw him with that girl in the men’s room that afternoon. The shocked expression, the hurt that spread through Saga’s face as he realized what had happened, But what hit him worst of all was when he saw Saga cry. He opened his eyes and shoved Shou off of him. Sending the vocalist sprawling across the floor. Hiroto was instantly at his lover’s side hugging him, the blonde guitarist also crying.
Tora covered his eyes with his arm as he felt the tears finally escaping from underneath his eyelids.
“ I never wanted things to turn out this way….I know I’ve ruined something that I really care about. I want to fix it but I just don’t know how….” He was sobbing as he realized that he had already lost the one thing that he really care about.
“He doesn’t even want to see me, Even just letting me explain things…. I want him…..I need him…” His voice trailing off. Hiroto and Shou could only stare at him.
“He’s different from your other lovers, Tora. You should have known that” Hiroto whispered.
“I KNOW! DAMMIT!! I know!! I know I messed things up and I don’t know how to fix it…” Tora said as he lifted the arm that was covering his eyes, revealing his tear-swollen eyes.
“ I care about Saga, Hiroto…..”
. He looked at Shou and Hiroto with all the sincerity he was in his being and said,
“ I love Saga ...and I’ll do anything to get him back.”
__- End Of Chapter One-__
Author's Notes :
>>>>>>>> Er, This is my first attempt on writing a fan fiction so please bear with me....
Be nice to me...Onegai *bows*
Damn, This chapter is has too much water works going on.*brings out umbrella*
And Er, Sorry, If I made all of them Arisu boys cry in this chapter. I, myself is not sure where i got the idea of having them cry in every scene. I should seriously stop watching to much TV dramas.
*shrugs* Oh well...I promise next chapters would be much happier.
Ja ne. *waves*