Update
I think three people still read this blog....
I am still unemployed. I called the outplacement firm that eBay contracted to help us laid-off people out. They have some sort of seminar on Tuesday, so I am going to that. They will also be giving me access to some website of theirs which has a job database and many other features (I'm told). The seminar is at 9 AM. Normally that's a good time, but I've been sleeping from around 9 AM to 6 PM lately, so I have no clue how I'll adjust for Tuesday. I probably will fall asleep at the seminar.
Anyway, that makes me feel like I'm doing something. I also could be applying for jobs I find online, but I keep putting off doing that. My excuse has been that my resume isn't updated. I think the real issue is that I feel unprepared for interviews.
Needless to say, the depression has been settling in. I've started having nightmares and gorging myself on junk food every night. I have a tendency to go to the store around 2 or 3 in the morning to buy whatever I'm craving. Ice cream, candy bars, ice cream, Crunch n Munch, root beer floats, True North Almond Clusters (those are so good), ice cream, Fig Newtons. And that's just this past week.
The nightmares though can be pretty cool. I'm actually way over being frightened by a dream. After all of the sleep paralysis issues I had about 15 years ago (and still crop up occasionally) nothing I'm going to dream about is going to scare me. Last night I dreamt that I found some dead guy in my house. It wasn't the house I actually live in, but it was my house in my dream. The funny thing is, in my dream I wouldn't let myself go look at the corpse, which was partially decomposed in the bathroom. So I really don't know how gruesome it was. My sister checked it out, and we called the police. I seem to remember that I had to sleep in the house with the dead body because they police took forever showing up.
Later, I had another dream where a corpse in my basement got wet and became animated. It was a towering woman, like 8 or 9 feet. She followed us upstairs, and then we walked around and around some sort of tower chanting prayers of love until she disappeared. None of us acknowledged her presence. Very odd.
In completely unrelated news, I had watched The Corpse Bride the previous day.
I'm still trying to finish the book I started for Nanowrimo. I mean, I've written a story, but it's short, only 66K words or so. I want to rewrite it and expand it. For what purpose, I'm not sure. Just to make myself feel accomplished I think. I think it will be easier to go in to work every day if I can also tell myself I'm also working on my dream. Really, to that end I should just get a job in customer support answering email. Then I can write at night after work. But I don't think I can pay my bills on a typical CS agent's salary (which is about $20K - $30K a year). I really needs something at least $40K a year.
Right now it's about 6:30 AM, and I haven't written anything yet. I'd like to at least write a concluding scene before I go to bed.
I am still unemployed. I called the outplacement firm that eBay contracted to help us laid-off people out. They have some sort of seminar on Tuesday, so I am going to that. They will also be giving me access to some website of theirs which has a job database and many other features (I'm told). The seminar is at 9 AM. Normally that's a good time, but I've been sleeping from around 9 AM to 6 PM lately, so I have no clue how I'll adjust for Tuesday. I probably will fall asleep at the seminar.
Anyway, that makes me feel like I'm doing something. I also could be applying for jobs I find online, but I keep putting off doing that. My excuse has been that my resume isn't updated. I think the real issue is that I feel unprepared for interviews.
Needless to say, the depression has been settling in. I've started having nightmares and gorging myself on junk food every night. I have a tendency to go to the store around 2 or 3 in the morning to buy whatever I'm craving. Ice cream, candy bars, ice cream, Crunch n Munch, root beer floats, True North Almond Clusters (those are so good), ice cream, Fig Newtons. And that's just this past week.
The nightmares though can be pretty cool. I'm actually way over being frightened by a dream. After all of the sleep paralysis issues I had about 15 years ago (and still crop up occasionally) nothing I'm going to dream about is going to scare me. Last night I dreamt that I found some dead guy in my house. It wasn't the house I actually live in, but it was my house in my dream. The funny thing is, in my dream I wouldn't let myself go look at the corpse, which was partially decomposed in the bathroom. So I really don't know how gruesome it was. My sister checked it out, and we called the police. I seem to remember that I had to sleep in the house with the dead body because they police took forever showing up.
Later, I had another dream where a corpse in my basement got wet and became animated. It was a towering woman, like 8 or 9 feet. She followed us upstairs, and then we walked around and around some sort of tower chanting prayers of love until she disappeared. None of us acknowledged her presence. Very odd.
In completely unrelated news, I had watched The Corpse Bride the previous day.
I'm still trying to finish the book I started for Nanowrimo. I mean, I've written a story, but it's short, only 66K words or so. I want to rewrite it and expand it. For what purpose, I'm not sure. Just to make myself feel accomplished I think. I think it will be easier to go in to work every day if I can also tell myself I'm also working on my dream. Really, to that end I should just get a job in customer support answering email. Then I can write at night after work. But I don't think I can pay my bills on a typical CS agent's salary (which is about $20K - $30K a year). I really needs something at least $40K a year.
Right now it's about 6:30 AM, and I haven't written anything yet. I'd like to at least write a concluding scene before I go to bed.