A painful realization that all has gone wrong and nobody cares at all.
Hannah ran away the other night.
She left a note for her mother to find in her bed that said, "Fuck you. Love, Hannah."
She left over Joe.
I spent most of last night at her house with Tyler trying to figure out where the fuck she could be.
I know she is at Kristin's house.
I have no idea how people can be so sick and not be able to comprehend how important it is that Hannah is brought home.
This is disgusting.
This morning I kept hallucinating.
I thought I saw Hannah at every one of my windows.
I wonder if she is ok and what she is thinking about.
Does she regret running away?
She probably wouldn't admit to it even if she did.
She wouldn't want to ruin her bad ass reputation.
But she doesn't see that she isn't a bad ass.
She is selfish and weak because she feels she needs to run away.
Nothing that was going on in her life was worth running away over.
Tyler and I went up into her room last night and it broke my heart.
There was pictures of her and I hanging on the wall and I wondered if she realized that we probably will never have fun memories like in the pictures again.
Tyler was more concerned with getting his clothes back from her.
He kept making jokes.
Maybe that's how he copes.
He kept telling me he needed a cigarette.
I wanted to scream, "I need my best friend back."
I wonder if this will be a story that Hannah is proud to tell her kids one day.
She will be proud.
She was proud of her mental institution.
Sge will be proud of her 3 day fuck-fest with Joe.
That's what I feel this is.
It's just stupid.
Beyond stupid.
♥
She left a note for her mother to find in her bed that said, "Fuck you. Love, Hannah."
She left over Joe.
I spent most of last night at her house with Tyler trying to figure out where the fuck she could be.
I know she is at Kristin's house.
I have no idea how people can be so sick and not be able to comprehend how important it is that Hannah is brought home.
This is disgusting.
This morning I kept hallucinating.
I thought I saw Hannah at every one of my windows.
I wonder if she is ok and what she is thinking about.
Does she regret running away?
She probably wouldn't admit to it even if she did.
She wouldn't want to ruin her bad ass reputation.
But she doesn't see that she isn't a bad ass.
She is selfish and weak because she feels she needs to run away.
Nothing that was going on in her life was worth running away over.
Tyler and I went up into her room last night and it broke my heart.
There was pictures of her and I hanging on the wall and I wondered if she realized that we probably will never have fun memories like in the pictures again.
Tyler was more concerned with getting his clothes back from her.
He kept making jokes.
Maybe that's how he copes.
He kept telling me he needed a cigarette.
I wanted to scream, "I need my best friend back."
I wonder if this will be a story that Hannah is proud to tell her kids one day.
She will be proud.
She was proud of her mental institution.
Sge will be proud of her 3 day fuck-fest with Joe.
That's what I feel this is.
It's just stupid.
Beyond stupid.
♥