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shes not leaving anymore. shes staying. i found another job. 40 hours a week, 10 bucks an hour. my life seems like its finally starting to come together. last week was the best week ever. thats when i found all this stuff out. but one particular event that has partly happened today is ruining everything. i was wayy totally happy the last part of last week... up until today. now i feel like shit again. im finding out later whats up. and from what ive been told im still going to feel like shit. i dont even know what it is yet and it already fucking blows. so much is racing through my mind right now. i just want her to be off work so i can know. so that i can go from there. hopefully so that WE can go from there. in other news... im not taking another single sip of alcohol of any form until the drinking and driving stops. completely! you can say its a stike in a way or something. it scares me. it worries me.