She screams in silence
uhm..
Adrenaline on the seaside board walk is probably too interestin fer it's own good.. haha we've spent the past three nights there.. and the toms river diner.. haha too much too much
Well that's the outside.. how about inside of her.. she screams in silence
Yesterday I worked by myself all day, I threw up all day long.. and when i wasn't - i was sleeping on the desk ... I had no motivation all day I wanted to lay and lay and lay i never wanted to move again.. Rick waited about an hour at my house just fer a haircut
I have no reason to do anything.. I just sit and stare and smoke 3 packs a day./. 3 fucking packs a day.. one after another one after another..
I cry in the shower because i feel like a door that leads no where.. and that's the only place no one can see me.. bleed out of myself.
I look in the mirror and see disgusting dead eyes that lead to no where.. blank stares back and forth..
I keep a smile so well and say im fine..On the inside i feel like theres an animal trying to rip through my ribs.. he wants freedom.. he wants something
i dont know what he wants.. he feeds on me..
I dont feel anything i dont even feel the water in the shower hitting my skin i dont feel the three packs that i smoke.. i dont feel the infection in my lip piercing i've acquired from the cigarrettes ive been smoking.. i dont feel the food hit my stomach nor do i feel it come back up 10 minutes later..I dont feel the smiles i give..
I feel cold
so fucking cold
all day and night
I just want some warmth
and I scream for the sunlight
or a car to take me anywhere.
just get me passed this dead and eternal snow
Adrenaline on the seaside board walk is probably too interestin fer it's own good.. haha we've spent the past three nights there.. and the toms river diner.. haha too much too much
Well that's the outside.. how about inside of her.. she screams in silence
Yesterday I worked by myself all day, I threw up all day long.. and when i wasn't - i was sleeping on the desk ... I had no motivation all day I wanted to lay and lay and lay i never wanted to move again.. Rick waited about an hour at my house just fer a haircut
I have no reason to do anything.. I just sit and stare and smoke 3 packs a day./. 3 fucking packs a day.. one after another one after another..
I cry in the shower because i feel like a door that leads no where.. and that's the only place no one can see me.. bleed out of myself.
I look in the mirror and see disgusting dead eyes that lead to no where.. blank stares back and forth..
I keep a smile so well and say im fine..On the inside i feel like theres an animal trying to rip through my ribs.. he wants freedom.. he wants something
i dont know what he wants.. he feeds on me..
I dont feel anything i dont even feel the water in the shower hitting my skin i dont feel the three packs that i smoke.. i dont feel the infection in my lip piercing i've acquired from the cigarrettes ive been smoking.. i dont feel the food hit my stomach nor do i feel it come back up 10 minutes later..I dont feel the smiles i give..
I feel cold
so fucking cold
all day and night
I just want some warmth
and I scream for the sunlight
or a car to take me anywhere.
just get me passed this dead and eternal snow